What a great weekend spending with old friends and wonderful fellowship. So grateful for the time spent and being back to our old "home". It was a beautiful thing being surrounded by the people that know us, care for us, have concern for us, help us, guide us and love us. It was just what we needed. I'm blown away by the friendships that we still have even after a year a being moved away. Why did I doubt that. Some of which we haven't seen or talked to in months and it was the greatest feeling to just love on each other and pick right back up where we left.
Hard to leave? YES...but I found myself ready to go "home".
I loved every minute I had...and when I knew it was time to go home, I was ready to go and come back. I knew where my place in life was, and that was in the North woods. I love everyone so much but I realized this weekend that my heart is in a different place. My heart loves our friends and missing them and their families terribly, but I also know that God has me in the North woods for this time in our life and it was re-affirming this weekend that we are in the exact place we are called to be and I'm so grateful that I'm able to say that. I was fearful that I would find myself this weekend wishing I was still back "home" and with everyone. and yes, i do, but when it comes down to it, would I move if I had a choice RIGHT now....i don't think i would. O goodness, that is hard...but I think of the wonderful friendships we DO have down there and how refreshing it was to be back with them ALL. Why would I want to stay up here if I had a choice...because THIS is where God has CALLED us to and it makes it that much easier for me to say that. God has worked in my life in the past year and wow, I just don't understand what I did to have God change me so much and take that much in a year to change me, mold me, grow me. I"m blown away at how JUST a year ago, the person I was...and the person I am today. I'm blessed.
My life isn't there anymore and that was NOT a sad reality for me, I was excited for where God has and what He is doing in my life. yeah, I'm sad because it once was and do long for that time in my life I had, but if I wouldn't be where I am currently, I wouldn't be the person I am today that God is working on.
How cool is that?
And I look at where I am currently and the struggles I'm facing in life right now. I'm trying to look at those things the same way I'm looking at this past year. I know it will come to pass, but it's always a process. It won't be fixed in a day, or a week, or a month, or a year. And that is what I'm trying to focus on. God is once again, shaping me, molding, stretching me, guiding me and during it, loving me. As frustrated as I can me, I know I have a change of heart through my current situation and that change of heart happened through this weekend through a year of changes of heart. If that makes any sense what so ever. I know that if what I went through this past year, if I can go through those struggles and come out of it to say THANK YOU LORD, i know I can face these things in the same way and know that God's hand is with me, every step of the way.
Lord, I know that you are always here and always have been. I thank for such an amazing weekend with friends and family and the beautiful fellowship you've given us this past weekend. What a blessing. Thank you for showing us both so many things and guiding us. We know that your hands are with us during this time and that you will continue to reveal to us things, but only in your time. That is what keeps me going Lord Jesus, knowing its all in your hands. Take this weight off my shoulders Lord Jesus, take it off and let me breathe knowing that you will reveal things to us, in your time, not ours. Just like you did to us a year ago. What a cool year it has been and I'm excited for the coming years and what cool things you will work on in our lives as well.
You are changing my heart Lord, to so many things that I have been so scared to face. I pray that you continue to working my life and change my heart. I want a heart change and I want to feel your love, support, guidance and care. I know you do, but i want to truly understand that when I face these heart changes, that it's not scary...IT'S A BLESSING!
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
How do you know which voice?
I don't even know where to begin. I'm stuck in a hard place, at least that is how it feels. I feel like I'm (we) are being torn into 2 different directions and the thing is...at one point, I thought God was clearly showing us one direction and now...I just feel like maybe that isn't the case and maybe He is showing us something else.
That brings me to the question...How do you know which voice is from God and which voice is from Evil. I feel like both could be God and very well could be. I know decisions aren't suppose to be easy to make, especially big decisions.
But I feel like when it's God's voice, it should be clear, at easy, no rushed...and so many other things. And I did feel that, at first. But now it's not so clear, or maybe is it that we just aren't making it clear.
I just want to be in the will of God and to do what He desires us to do. How can you know when that is or when that ISN'T?
Lord Jesus, no one will understand what is really behind this post, and that is fine. I know you do and I just pray that during this questioning time that I find relaxation in YOU and what you are trying to show us. I know we will learn something from this in which ever way this comes about. Lord Jesus, I don't ask for you to answer my questions or to point blank show us what you mean. I just ask that you can help to keep seeking this out and seeking YOU out during this time and to listen to YOUR voice and what you are telling us. Help me to know its your voice. Speak wisdom and understanding into us and we figure out what we are suppose to do. I thank you for guiding us this entire time and I know that you continually will, with no matter what outcome happens.
Lord Jesus, give us the peace to know its from YOU.
That brings me to the question...How do you know which voice is from God and which voice is from Evil. I feel like both could be God and very well could be. I know decisions aren't suppose to be easy to make, especially big decisions.
But I feel like when it's God's voice, it should be clear, at easy, no rushed...and so many other things. And I did feel that, at first. But now it's not so clear, or maybe is it that we just aren't making it clear.
I just want to be in the will of God and to do what He desires us to do. How can you know when that is or when that ISN'T?
Lord Jesus, no one will understand what is really behind this post, and that is fine. I know you do and I just pray that during this questioning time that I find relaxation in YOU and what you are trying to show us. I know we will learn something from this in which ever way this comes about. Lord Jesus, I don't ask for you to answer my questions or to point blank show us what you mean. I just ask that you can help to keep seeking this out and seeking YOU out during this time and to listen to YOUR voice and what you are telling us. Help me to know its your voice. Speak wisdom and understanding into us and we figure out what we are suppose to do. I thank you for guiding us this entire time and I know that you continually will, with no matter what outcome happens.
Lord Jesus, give us the peace to know its from YOU.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Surpasses all...
Philippians 4:4-9
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding,will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers,whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me – practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.
A passage I am familiar with, but one that I haven’t thought about much lately. I remember like 5-8 years ago, this was a passage that I had written out on cute paper and posted near my bedroom light switch. Every time I walked out of the room, I saw it. Every time I entered the room, I saw it. It was a constant reminder to me that God was with me and my anxious ways were in His hands to deal, and not for me to deal with. How could I forget this passage over the years? How have I come to be so anxious? I find myself anxious over the littlest of things. And then in the big ways too (or maybe what I consider big ways). Maybe anxious is a strong word, but I highly doubt that in my life! :) I get excited over the fact of calling someone and making an appointment. I keep it on my brain until I do it. What is that? And then if I don’t hear from someone quick enough, I get anxious to hear from them…like a kid waiting for Christmas ! Yikes…
And then today, as I’m at work and putting together a PowerPoint for our upcoming sermon, I read the scripture Philippians 4:4-9. And I think…ah….where has this verse been in my life lately? Well, it’s always been there, I’ve just chosen to forget it. :( It makes me sad. This verse holds so much power and love! I feel God saying to me, “Kelly, daughter of mine, take your anxiety to me. Let me figure out this situation for you and you just LOVE on life.” Okay God…I’m letting you take my anxieties. Ah…that’s a big one. Lord Jesus, I want to let go of the anxiety of buying a house, of needing a place to call our own, of the struggles I feel where we are. I take that anxiety to you Lord and give me the peace I need to keep moving forward in my everyday life. Through these struggles I’ve been feeling lately, I give you thanks for what I am experience or enduring through. Through these things, I know I’m gaining strength and understanding and peace! I thank you for thistime in my life, for it’s the time you’ve given me to grow and stretch me and I just pray to you that I would see it and not let it go of the opportunities you have placed in front of me to grow and stretch me. I’m so thankful for what you are doing in my life!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
retreat
I honestly can't even express how my feelings or thoughts have been the past week, or even then some. I've been encouraged and I've felt defeated. I've decided today that I need a retreat. Ha, a retreat from what? I'm not even sure...but part of me feels like a retreat from Communication! YIKES, right? I've realized that my feelings of being deflated have a common route, and that being communication. I'm frustrated with it.
So my solution, don't do it! haha, NO! Not that. But I feel like I need to take a step back and NOT make it a center part of my life. We are ALL guilty of taking too much time on certain things (Internet) and so on so forth. I'm not going to name and certain particular communication things, but I've realized that in my life, those things, or the one thing in particular is really getting me down.
I don't even know the stuff that I am being encouraged by as well as being defeated by, how to even go about it. I'm honestly a confused soul and a frustrated one. I know for a fact God is working in my life through this and I'm trying to listen to what He is showing/telling me. I just don't want to miss it!
But I've realized that when I use certain communication tools in my life, that is when I start to become defeated. The funny part, for me, is that I feel I don't even cause some of it to happen, its out of my control. But what is in my control?
I just feel like taking a retreat from it and not focusing so much on that stuff and focusing my time and energy on other matters in my life. I saw something today that talked about retreat and I thought, huh, I'd like to take one of those. And that is when it hit me. I don't have to physically go on a retreat, to get a retreat. I can do that myself in my own life right where I am. So that is what I am doing.
I pray that God will use this "retreat" in my life to enlighten me? (is that the word I'm looking for?). I pray that God will give me rest and peace in this time and understanding of some of what is going on in my life. I pray God takes away my defeated feelings. I don't like that feeling and I'm tried of having it. I get encouraged, and then it turns right into defeat. Why? O Lord Jesus, I don't want to be defeated by things that really mean nothing in this world. Please keep encouraging me and I ask a hedge of protection over me during this time. I'm excited for the things that are going on in my life, the good and the hard and the joy and the pain, because through them all, I'm learning and growing so much closer to you. I love that. I love what you are doing in my life. I just want the hurt that I feel, to subside. I want clarity to how I feel and why I feel it. I can't do this without. I can't get past these feelings without you taking the burden. I felt like I could figure this out on my own, but I can't. Please show me what it is that is going on, the deeper part of it. Whew, that's a hard one to ask, but I ask that it goes deeper, so i get it all out and understand where it all is coming from.
I pray you protect me during this time. And I'm thankful for it.
So my solution, don't do it! haha, NO! Not that. But I feel like I need to take a step back and NOT make it a center part of my life. We are ALL guilty of taking too much time on certain things (Internet) and so on so forth. I'm not going to name and certain particular communication things, but I've realized that in my life, those things, or the one thing in particular is really getting me down.
I don't even know the stuff that I am being encouraged by as well as being defeated by, how to even go about it. I'm honestly a confused soul and a frustrated one. I know for a fact God is working in my life through this and I'm trying to listen to what He is showing/telling me. I just don't want to miss it!
But I've realized that when I use certain communication tools in my life, that is when I start to become defeated. The funny part, for me, is that I feel I don't even cause some of it to happen, its out of my control. But what is in my control?
I just feel like taking a retreat from it and not focusing so much on that stuff and focusing my time and energy on other matters in my life. I saw something today that talked about retreat and I thought, huh, I'd like to take one of those. And that is when it hit me. I don't have to physically go on a retreat, to get a retreat. I can do that myself in my own life right where I am. So that is what I am doing.
I pray that God will use this "retreat" in my life to enlighten me? (is that the word I'm looking for?). I pray that God will give me rest and peace in this time and understanding of some of what is going on in my life. I pray God takes away my defeated feelings. I don't like that feeling and I'm tried of having it. I get encouraged, and then it turns right into defeat. Why? O Lord Jesus, I don't want to be defeated by things that really mean nothing in this world. Please keep encouraging me and I ask a hedge of protection over me during this time. I'm excited for the things that are going on in my life, the good and the hard and the joy and the pain, because through them all, I'm learning and growing so much closer to you. I love that. I love what you are doing in my life. I just want the hurt that I feel, to subside. I want clarity to how I feel and why I feel it. I can't do this without. I can't get past these feelings without you taking the burden. I felt like I could figure this out on my own, but I can't. Please show me what it is that is going on, the deeper part of it. Whew, that's a hard one to ask, but I ask that it goes deeper, so i get it all out and understand where it all is coming from.
I pray you protect me during this time. And I'm thankful for it.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
rummage=timing
I was digging through some horrendous stacks of papers that I need to file away at home. I don't know what it is, but ever since we moved, I have not been able to organize my stuff like I'm use to and it's driving me crazy! So instead, i keep it piled up and just move things from one pile to the next, to the next, to the next...well, you get the idea. Ha, I blame it on the place we live, that I have no space to spread out and organize. Sure.
That isn't my whole point.
The neat thing that comes out of making stacks and stacks of things, is you don't remember completely what was in them. Some stacks are important and those always get taken care of first. Well, tonight I made it to a stack I haven't touched in probably 3 months. It obviously wasn't too important of a stack. So I ventured out and thought, well I better see what I exactly made of this stack.
It was what I expected it to be, all misc. things that didn't really have a place, and those I highly dislike, so that is why I just keep them in a stack and move around to other stacks! :)
But the neat thing, I came across a piece of paper that had some points written down on it. I recognized it immediately. It was a note from a conversation I had with a dear friend, mentor and amazing Pastors' wife from my previous church. I smiled, because of the thought of that sweet conversation we had back in August when I last visited our previous "home". This lovely lady sat down with me and asked me how things were for us since we moved and I had shared with her things and that we were starting out on the venture of house hunting and I remember now that even then, I was anxious. Ha, and I laugh now thinking that was NOTHING compared to what I've been feeling now.
She shared with me some thoughts on how to view/look at this time in our lives. And that is where that notes comes in. That is what I found tonight and I feel so blessed and I know that this is God placing this back into my life, right now at this very moment. When I received these points before, I didn't really know what to think of them or how to take them in, but maybe today, tonight, this week...God has something for me with these. Timing is everything and this is no exception! :)
1. Do you believe He CAN do it?
2. Do you believe he WANTS to do it for you?
3. Do you believe He WILL do it?
4. Do you believe He already HAS done it?
hum...
I can't honestly say that back in August when I received this, ya, didn't think or maybe it was just that I didn't understand it. But now, where I am at now, goodness.
The last point, #4...hits me the most. Because out of all of them, that is the one I believe!! I know God already has a place for us, and that is even how I pray when I get anxious and frustrated. I ask God to just give me the peace, because I know He already has the "home" picked out for us, it's just in His time. And that He would give me the guidance during this time and that when He was ready, He would show that place to us.
These points have never meant more to me than they do at this moment. I not only believe that God can do, wants to do, will do, and has done it, but I TRUST that He will do it. I know He is in this thing every step of the way. And some might think I'm thinking too much about a house and all our focus is on that. And yeah, maybe it is, but I know I haven't lost sight of God during this time and that is what I'm thankful for. I see God in this entire process and I'm so thankful. And others might think what a stupid thing to get so worked up about, there are bigger problems in life to face. Yeah, THERE ARE!! But God doesn't just have to be in the big things in life, He is in everything! Big and small. Right now, this is a big thing I'm facing. Maybe in a month or a week or day, I won't think it is.
I'm thankful for today, for what God showed me in rummaging through old things. My husband would laugh because I hang onto too many things sometimes, like notes. But this is why! :) Because you never know when God will use that again for you. Or, not only that, when God will bring it to you and that it might mean something more then.
I'm also thankful for this person and how God has used this couple in my life. And I'm thankful that I was able to think of them tonight and rejoice in our friendship. Makes me a little sad, because I'm not around them much anymore, but I'm thankful for those years I did get to know them.
God, thank you. I believe that you have a house out there for us, and I believe that in your time, it will happen. If it's this month, great, if it's a year from now, great, if it's years away, great. I'll know that you are guiding us and in your time that will happen. because your timing, means everything! :) Thank you for showing me that tonight! This is what I needed.
:)
That isn't my whole point.
The neat thing that comes out of making stacks and stacks of things, is you don't remember completely what was in them. Some stacks are important and those always get taken care of first. Well, tonight I made it to a stack I haven't touched in probably 3 months. It obviously wasn't too important of a stack. So I ventured out and thought, well I better see what I exactly made of this stack.
It was what I expected it to be, all misc. things that didn't really have a place, and those I highly dislike, so that is why I just keep them in a stack and move around to other stacks! :)
But the neat thing, I came across a piece of paper that had some points written down on it. I recognized it immediately. It was a note from a conversation I had with a dear friend, mentor and amazing Pastors' wife from my previous church. I smiled, because of the thought of that sweet conversation we had back in August when I last visited our previous "home". This lovely lady sat down with me and asked me how things were for us since we moved and I had shared with her things and that we were starting out on the venture of house hunting and I remember now that even then, I was anxious. Ha, and I laugh now thinking that was NOTHING compared to what I've been feeling now.
She shared with me some thoughts on how to view/look at this time in our lives. And that is where that notes comes in. That is what I found tonight and I feel so blessed and I know that this is God placing this back into my life, right now at this very moment. When I received these points before, I didn't really know what to think of them or how to take them in, but maybe today, tonight, this week...God has something for me with these. Timing is everything and this is no exception! :)
1. Do you believe He CAN do it?
2. Do you believe he WANTS to do it for you?
3. Do you believe He WILL do it?
4. Do you believe He already HAS done it?
hum...
I can't honestly say that back in August when I received this, ya, didn't think or maybe it was just that I didn't understand it. But now, where I am at now, goodness.
The last point, #4...hits me the most. Because out of all of them, that is the one I believe!! I know God already has a place for us, and that is even how I pray when I get anxious and frustrated. I ask God to just give me the peace, because I know He already has the "home" picked out for us, it's just in His time. And that He would give me the guidance during this time and that when He was ready, He would show that place to us.
These points have never meant more to me than they do at this moment. I not only believe that God can do, wants to do, will do, and has done it, but I TRUST that He will do it. I know He is in this thing every step of the way. And some might think I'm thinking too much about a house and all our focus is on that. And yeah, maybe it is, but I know I haven't lost sight of God during this time and that is what I'm thankful for. I see God in this entire process and I'm so thankful. And others might think what a stupid thing to get so worked up about, there are bigger problems in life to face. Yeah, THERE ARE!! But God doesn't just have to be in the big things in life, He is in everything! Big and small. Right now, this is a big thing I'm facing. Maybe in a month or a week or day, I won't think it is.
I'm thankful for today, for what God showed me in rummaging through old things. My husband would laugh because I hang onto too many things sometimes, like notes. But this is why! :) Because you never know when God will use that again for you. Or, not only that, when God will bring it to you and that it might mean something more then.
I'm also thankful for this person and how God has used this couple in my life. And I'm thankful that I was able to think of them tonight and rejoice in our friendship. Makes me a little sad, because I'm not around them much anymore, but I'm thankful for those years I did get to know them.
God, thank you. I believe that you have a house out there for us, and I believe that in your time, it will happen. If it's this month, great, if it's a year from now, great, if it's years away, great. I'll know that you are guiding us and in your time that will happen. because your timing, means everything! :) Thank you for showing me that tonight! This is what I needed.
:)
Friday, January 27, 2012
When you ask...He will answer
Why do we always forget that? Why is it always so hard for us to understand that if you just go to Him, and ask what you are frustrated with, He will answer!?
Well, apparently I always forget that.
I had the amazing answer given to me earlier this week. As you know from my last post I talked about frustration with how do you. Well, I talked things over with my hubby and I just didn't even know how to pray to God about this situation. I listened to my husband, for once, :) and respected his decision, which is a decision he told the Lord he would do. That was that he wasn't going to focus or look at any houses until February. Now, sure, that is only a week or so away, but it was still something he felt he needed to. So since that was the case, I had to respect that and forget about my frustration with what to do, as well.
So I did. But I needed help. So I asked God that if the house I was confused about and wondering what we were suppose to and if that was the house He wanted us in...I asked him to sell in between now and February, so that I could just let it go. I asked God that if that was the house He wanted us in, He'd show it to us and He'd keep it available to us until then. And if it wasn't, that He would sell it so that I can forget about it and focus on other things in life again.
And two days later...he answered that prayer. The house is under contract...already! My one word: bittersweet! But more sweet. I feel so blessed that God would do that...that it would be so quickly. I feel that God put his arms around me and said, watch me work. I feel so much peace, because I know it is God working, and not me! And only a slight portion of bitterness to do I feel, because the only thing I feel is sadness, because I did love that house and knowing it's gone, is sad. But then I think about it all over again and I just know that 100% God is guiding us to the place He wants us at...and He'll show us that place when He is ready to show it to us. So it makes me overjoyed to know that He is doing this and guiding us. We just need to continually seek Him out in this.
Since the beginning of this week, I've felt more like me. I haven't been consumed by house hunting. Sure it's on my mind and I still desire a house and am tired of our situation. But through this situation that we are in, God is shaping me (us) and molding me into something. I know I'm grateful for what I have. And if we have to wait a whole another year, I will. O boy, did I just say that!?!
I know God will give you the desires of your heart, but I just need to let Him do that too. And I trust that He will. I'm overjoyed knowing that He is taking care of us.
Lord Jesus, thank you so much for your direction. Thank you for showing me all that you did this week and how you took something away from me, so that I could focus back on you and what the bigger picture is. Thank you for your quick answer and thank you for my attitude that you have given me in this. I could have been upset and wonder why you'd take that place away from us. But instead, you have me the attitude of peace and understanding that there is a greater picture out there to this house process. I thank you for that. Thank you for your continued guidance. I pray that my husband and I would be able to continue to see you in this and turn to you with all our doubts and concerns and wonders. I pray that you guide us, in your time, the place that we are suppose to be at. And maybe it's no place at all right now. Just help us to focus on you and what you want us to do in our lives. Thank you Lord Jesus!
Well, apparently I always forget that.
I had the amazing answer given to me earlier this week. As you know from my last post I talked about frustration with how do you. Well, I talked things over with my hubby and I just didn't even know how to pray to God about this situation. I listened to my husband, for once, :) and respected his decision, which is a decision he told the Lord he would do. That was that he wasn't going to focus or look at any houses until February. Now, sure, that is only a week or so away, but it was still something he felt he needed to. So since that was the case, I had to respect that and forget about my frustration with what to do, as well.
So I did. But I needed help. So I asked God that if the house I was confused about and wondering what we were suppose to and if that was the house He wanted us in...I asked him to sell in between now and February, so that I could just let it go. I asked God that if that was the house He wanted us in, He'd show it to us and He'd keep it available to us until then. And if it wasn't, that He would sell it so that I can forget about it and focus on other things in life again.
And two days later...he answered that prayer. The house is under contract...already! My one word: bittersweet! But more sweet. I feel so blessed that God would do that...that it would be so quickly. I feel that God put his arms around me and said, watch me work. I feel so much peace, because I know it is God working, and not me! And only a slight portion of bitterness to do I feel, because the only thing I feel is sadness, because I did love that house and knowing it's gone, is sad. But then I think about it all over again and I just know that 100% God is guiding us to the place He wants us at...and He'll show us that place when He is ready to show it to us. So it makes me overjoyed to know that He is doing this and guiding us. We just need to continually seek Him out in this.
Since the beginning of this week, I've felt more like me. I haven't been consumed by house hunting. Sure it's on my mind and I still desire a house and am tired of our situation. But through this situation that we are in, God is shaping me (us) and molding me into something. I know I'm grateful for what I have. And if we have to wait a whole another year, I will. O boy, did I just say that!?!
I know God will give you the desires of your heart, but I just need to let Him do that too. And I trust that He will. I'm overjoyed knowing that He is taking care of us.
Lord Jesus, thank you so much for your direction. Thank you for showing me all that you did this week and how you took something away from me, so that I could focus back on you and what the bigger picture is. Thank you for your quick answer and thank you for my attitude that you have given me in this. I could have been upset and wonder why you'd take that place away from us. But instead, you have me the attitude of peace and understanding that there is a greater picture out there to this house process. I thank you for that. Thank you for your continued guidance. I pray that my husband and I would be able to continue to see you in this and turn to you with all our doubts and concerns and wonders. I pray that you guide us, in your time, the place that we are suppose to be at. And maybe it's no place at all right now. Just help us to focus on you and what you want us to do in our lives. Thank you Lord Jesus!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
How do you know?
I've been a rather confused person lately. I'm stuck on knowing what God is doing or what He is trying to tell us. I've spent so much of my energy lately just trying to figure this out, and I'm so heavy hearted these past few weeks.
Once again, house situation. Well, last time I shared, we were still looking and we still currently are. But we actually put an offer in on a house, and we accepted the counter offer back. I was actually thinking I had gotten my Christmas wish (we put the offer in on Christmas Eve!). Well, it's a foreclosure, which just adds so much more complicated things to the situation. We had 3 days to have an attorney look it over and we did, a family friend who is an attorney. He looked it over and called us back on New Years Eve, and said that it was a weird contract and that it would be pretty high risk for us to go through with this. And Ben and I just knew it wasn't something we wanted to do, and that night, unfortunately, in tears, many tears, decided to back out of an incredible house! I was broken hearted (and still am).
I couldn't believe we were THIS close and I (we) just let it GO. I felt like it slipped through our hands, only we were the ones that let it slip! WHY?
That has been almost 3 weeks later now since we signed termination papers on the place. Has been a sad few weeks, a frustrating few weeks and we move on, right?
Well, right when we have come to a place were we have someone moved on in a good way and have been thinking positive about house hunting and the direction we want to go. I see that the house we had an offer accepted on, has now just reduced the price, again, another $5000. (and actually lower than what we accepted offer on).
And it gives me that heartache all over again! What I can't figure out is why this would keep coming in my face.
That place felt so much like God was showing us that one. And see, that is where I"m "how do you know". Because Ben felt it before I did, that this was the place we have been looking for. I fell in love with it during the showing (he was before that). And even when we did a second showing (with Ben's family), there was a major thing that showed up that it felt like God was saying, see, I'll take care of you!...there was brand new appliance installed! We had NO IDEA that those were going to be there. Because prior to this I was freaking out about this whole deal and wondering where the money was going to come from to purchase this place with $$ down and to also have $$ for the appliance that the place did not have. And here, they show up and I felt like that was God saying, "I'm taking care of you, just do this and accept the offer". I got all RE-EXCITED about the place and we went and accepted the offer!
So here we are again, and it comes to the surface and I feel as though is this GOD once again nudging us to this place or is this just SOMETHING else?!
How do you know?
I talked with the hubby and he is a little more reserved on this subject now and just doesn't want to touch it...and I'm thinking, really? Why is this happening. His first response to me was, "this isn't really waiting Kelly". After we had JUST said we were going to wait for a house a little longer. and now, 2 days later, I'm talking about this house again!
How does something like this happen and how do we know what we are suppose to do. How do you know if this is what God is showing you to do or how do you know that this isn't something that he is putting in your face to show you how to trust Him and NOT do it and wait on Him. I just can't figure this one out and it honestly is making me hurt.
I so badly just want to be in God's will, but how can I even know if that is what is happening!?
I was just praying to God yesterday to give me peace and to help me to LET THIS GO, this whole house hunting thing. I was asking God for patience in this process and that He was already preparing a house for us and for me to just be still in knowing that and that He would direct us when the time is right, to this place.
Is this the place?
I know I could go round and round with this whole thing and analyze every aspect of this situation. That won't help. What I (we) need to do is to turn to God himself and figure out what He is telling us.
So Lord Jesus, I once again give this up to you! I want to know what we are suppose to do and what you want us to do. I want to know...how do I know? Can you please help me to give this up to you completely and just have you guide us in this. I know we both need to be into this 100% and if we aren't, maybe that right there is my answer. Lord I pray that you work in my life and my husbands life through this process. Help us to seek you through this completely. I pray Lord Jesus that you would calm me and reassure me that you are in this or not in this. I know I'm very anxious to get into a house, but Lord, I want it to be the house that you would want us to be in, not just a house because I'm tired of our place. I'm so grateful for the place we live and I don't want to complain about that anymore. You know our desires right now and I pray that I can let those desires go to you and give me the peace I need in this entire situation.
Lord take away the stress, the pain, the heart ache, the frustration, the anxiety.
I give this up to you Lord Jesus.
Once again, house situation. Well, last time I shared, we were still looking and we still currently are. But we actually put an offer in on a house, and we accepted the counter offer back. I was actually thinking I had gotten my Christmas wish (we put the offer in on Christmas Eve!). Well, it's a foreclosure, which just adds so much more complicated things to the situation. We had 3 days to have an attorney look it over and we did, a family friend who is an attorney. He looked it over and called us back on New Years Eve, and said that it was a weird contract and that it would be pretty high risk for us to go through with this. And Ben and I just knew it wasn't something we wanted to do, and that night, unfortunately, in tears, many tears, decided to back out of an incredible house! I was broken hearted (and still am).
I couldn't believe we were THIS close and I (we) just let it GO. I felt like it slipped through our hands, only we were the ones that let it slip! WHY?
That has been almost 3 weeks later now since we signed termination papers on the place. Has been a sad few weeks, a frustrating few weeks and we move on, right?
Well, right when we have come to a place were we have someone moved on in a good way and have been thinking positive about house hunting and the direction we want to go. I see that the house we had an offer accepted on, has now just reduced the price, again, another $5000. (and actually lower than what we accepted offer on).
And it gives me that heartache all over again! What I can't figure out is why this would keep coming in my face.
That place felt so much like God was showing us that one. And see, that is where I"m "how do you know". Because Ben felt it before I did, that this was the place we have been looking for. I fell in love with it during the showing (he was before that). And even when we did a second showing (with Ben's family), there was a major thing that showed up that it felt like God was saying, see, I'll take care of you!...there was brand new appliance installed! We had NO IDEA that those were going to be there. Because prior to this I was freaking out about this whole deal and wondering where the money was going to come from to purchase this place with $$ down and to also have $$ for the appliance that the place did not have. And here, they show up and I felt like that was God saying, "I'm taking care of you, just do this and accept the offer". I got all RE-EXCITED about the place and we went and accepted the offer!
So here we are again, and it comes to the surface and I feel as though is this GOD once again nudging us to this place or is this just SOMETHING else?!
How do you know?
I talked with the hubby and he is a little more reserved on this subject now and just doesn't want to touch it...and I'm thinking, really? Why is this happening. His first response to me was, "this isn't really waiting Kelly". After we had JUST said we were going to wait for a house a little longer. and now, 2 days later, I'm talking about this house again!
How does something like this happen and how do we know what we are suppose to do. How do you know if this is what God is showing you to do or how do you know that this isn't something that he is putting in your face to show you how to trust Him and NOT do it and wait on Him. I just can't figure this one out and it honestly is making me hurt.
I so badly just want to be in God's will, but how can I even know if that is what is happening!?
I was just praying to God yesterday to give me peace and to help me to LET THIS GO, this whole house hunting thing. I was asking God for patience in this process and that He was already preparing a house for us and for me to just be still in knowing that and that He would direct us when the time is right, to this place.
Is this the place?
I know I could go round and round with this whole thing and analyze every aspect of this situation. That won't help. What I (we) need to do is to turn to God himself and figure out what He is telling us.
So Lord Jesus, I once again give this up to you! I want to know what we are suppose to do and what you want us to do. I want to know...how do I know? Can you please help me to give this up to you completely and just have you guide us in this. I know we both need to be into this 100% and if we aren't, maybe that right there is my answer. Lord I pray that you work in my life and my husbands life through this process. Help us to seek you through this completely. I pray Lord Jesus that you would calm me and reassure me that you are in this or not in this. I know I'm very anxious to get into a house, but Lord, I want it to be the house that you would want us to be in, not just a house because I'm tired of our place. I'm so grateful for the place we live and I don't want to complain about that anymore. You know our desires right now and I pray that I can let those desires go to you and give me the peace I need in this entire situation.
Lord take away the stress, the pain, the heart ache, the frustration, the anxiety.
I give this up to you Lord Jesus.
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