Fear of Death

Most would think this post would be about Easter, as that is what today is. Today hits me differently than Easters in the past. There is talk about death this weekend because of what Jesus did for us. There is talk about death in the news because of COVID19. Easter is a joyous time because we remember what Jesus did for us. What God sacrificed for us. But for the past month I have been gripped with fear...so many fears. People ask me what I am afraid of, or what is bothering me about everything. It's been every angle of this.

I'm afraid of...
...daily working (I work in healthcare).
...getting deployed from my clinic and going to the hospital to help out.
...letting my co-workers down because I'm a wimp and am afraid to go elsewhere to help.
...not seeing my kiddos if things get back at work and I'm in quarantine.
...our community getting hit with the virus and overtaking our hospital.
...Ben getting sick (he doesn't have the best immune system).
...my kids getting sick.
...my extended family getting sick.
...not seeing my parents for months.
...the world shutting down.
...Ben loosing his job (temporarily).
...getting sick myself.
...death...and not being here anymore for my family.

Today I looked at Easter a little differently. Christ defeated death.

Hebrews 2:14-15 - "Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of death-that is, the devil- and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death."

We don't have to fear death. We have been set free from the fear of death. We do not have to live this way.

1 Corinthians 15:54-55 "Death is swallowed up in victory." "O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?" The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the word of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain."

I believe Christ died on the cross for me. For my sins. For my fears. I need to continue to look to Him in this time. I need to Trust in Him in this time that all those fears I have, that He meets me in ALL of those fears. He understands my fears. He wants to take my fears away.