I'm not sure what I'm going to write about. All I know is a lot has gone on since May. I've had lots of joys and a lot of challenges. I've had frustrations and more joys because of it.
Tomorrow starts the beginning of something new for me and something I'm so excited to start because of my new found passion that God has given me over the past 2 years. Two years ago, it was just a shot in the dark at something new and now, here two years later, I'm doing something I didn't even think I could do. Amazing how God can put something on your heart, have no idea what it might mean, and you do it, and realize you should have done this 10 years ago. But I'm thankful for where God has led me the past 2 years.
I have ONE more big challenge set before me. I'm scared out of mind for Friday to come. This week is so crazy. I start the beginning of something awesome, and at the same time, I also have to finish something. Even though I have the new job, I still need to get certified for my schooling I've had over the past 2 years. Friday is going to be a bucket full of nerves. I feel like everything from the past 2 years comes down to this. This one exam! I'm freaked out! And it's only Sunday. I still have 5 days to go. Ugh.
Do I feel ready, yes and no. I've study nearly every day for the past month. I sure hope it's been enough. I'm so stinking nervous and scared. I'm scared of failure. I don't know why I am so scared, because God has guided me this entire time through the past 2 years. Does that mean he's gonna help me pass, not at all. But I do need to trust Him and and trust myself that I know the material and have confidence in myself. Everyone else seems to have confidence in me, but me!
Why can't I learn this yet?
This week is awesome in so many ways! Most people have asked me today if I'm nervous for tomorrow, for the start of my new job. And I say, "oo, I haven't thought about that." I"m more nervous for my exam than I am for a new job. I"m excited to just get working there and be there. I"m NOT nervous one bit. I"m excited because I feel like I'm suppose to be there for some reason and this entire time God has guided me in the interview process between 3 other job opportunities. I've been in awe of how God has orchestrated all of this in the first place. So excited for tomorrow. But I"m SO scared for Friday!!
Breathe...
