I was digging through some horrendous stacks of papers that I need to file away at home. I don't know what it is, but ever since we moved, I have not been able to organize my stuff like I'm use to and it's driving me crazy! So instead, i keep it piled up and just move things from one pile to the next, to the next, to the next...well, you get the idea. Ha, I blame it on the place we live, that I have no space to spread out and organize. Sure.
That isn't my whole point.
The neat thing that comes out of making stacks and stacks of things, is you don't remember completely what was in them. Some stacks are important and those always get taken care of first. Well, tonight I made it to a stack I haven't touched in probably 3 months. It obviously wasn't too important of a stack. So I ventured out and thought, well I better see what I exactly made of this stack.
It was what I expected it to be, all misc. things that didn't really have a place, and those I highly dislike, so that is why I just keep them in a stack and move around to other stacks! :)
But the neat thing, I came across a piece of paper that had some points written down on it. I recognized it immediately. It was a note from a conversation I had with a dear friend, mentor and amazing Pastors' wife from my previous church. I smiled, because of the thought of that sweet conversation we had back in August when I last visited our previous "home". This lovely lady sat down with me and asked me how things were for us since we moved and I had shared with her things and that we were starting out on the venture of house hunting and I remember now that even then, I was anxious. Ha, and I laugh now thinking that was NOTHING compared to what I've been feeling now.
She shared with me some thoughts on how to view/look at this time in our lives. And that is where that notes comes in. That is what I found tonight and I feel so blessed and I know that this is God placing this back into my life, right now at this very moment. When I received these points before, I didn't really know what to think of them or how to take them in, but maybe today, tonight, this week...God has something for me with these. Timing is everything and this is no exception! :)
1. Do you believe He CAN do it?
2. Do you believe he WANTS to do it for you?
3. Do you believe He WILL do it?
4. Do you believe He already HAS done it?
hum...
I can't honestly say that back in August when I received this, ya, didn't think or maybe it was just that I didn't understand it. But now, where I am at now, goodness.
The last point, #4...hits me the most. Because out of all of them, that is the one I believe!! I know God already has a place for us, and that is even how I pray when I get anxious and frustrated. I ask God to just give me the peace, because I know He already has the "home" picked out for us, it's just in His time. And that He would give me the guidance during this time and that when He was ready, He would show that place to us.
These points have never meant more to me than they do at this moment. I not only believe that God can do, wants to do, will do, and has done it, but I TRUST that He will do it. I know He is in this thing every step of the way. And some might think I'm thinking too much about a house and all our focus is on that. And yeah, maybe it is, but I know I haven't lost sight of God during this time and that is what I'm thankful for. I see God in this entire process and I'm so thankful. And others might think what a stupid thing to get so worked up about, there are bigger problems in life to face. Yeah, THERE ARE!! But God doesn't just have to be in the big things in life, He is in everything! Big and small. Right now, this is a big thing I'm facing. Maybe in a month or a week or day, I won't think it is.
I'm thankful for today, for what God showed me in rummaging through old things. My husband would laugh because I hang onto too many things sometimes, like notes. But this is why! :) Because you never know when God will use that again for you. Or, not only that, when God will bring it to you and that it might mean something more then.
I'm also thankful for this person and how God has used this couple in my life. And I'm thankful that I was able to think of them tonight and rejoice in our friendship. Makes me a little sad, because I'm not around them much anymore, but I'm thankful for those years I did get to know them.
God, thank you. I believe that you have a house out there for us, and I believe that in your time, it will happen. If it's this month, great, if it's a year from now, great, if it's years away, great. I'll know that you are guiding us and in your time that will happen. because your timing, means everything! :) Thank you for showing me that tonight! This is what I needed.
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