Today is the day

Isaiah 48:17

“This is what the LORD says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: “I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.”

I have many anxious & nervous feelings going through me today. Today I start school again! I'm going for a second degree, 6 years after getting my first degree. I'm extremely nervous, anxious and very much humbled and asking for strength not only for today, but for the rest of this journey. I've had many feelings coming over me with joy, excitement, fear, apprehensiveness, sceptical, back to joy, some more fear.

I have so many wonders about this. Am I doing the right thing? Why am I doing this? How can I do this? Will I be able to do this? I have so many fears as well...fear of failure, fear of "this isn't made for me, like I thought", and then..."well now what?"

6 years ago I graduated and I always had some sort of thought I might be back at it, but as the years have gone by, I found that I probably never would go back. And now, here I am. I feel old, but more importantly, I feel driven. I hope my driven way right now, to do this degree, really pushes me and helps me when the studies get rough. I just hope that I am able to figure this "study stuff" out after 6 years of not doing much of that at all.

My husband and I have prayed about this day for a long while now. It's strange that I am doing this for many reasons.

Lord Jesus I just pray right now that all my fears and anxieties subside and that I focus on this. I pray that this is what I'm suppose to do. I am scared that I'm doing the right thing and that I'm in your will and what I'm suppose to be doing. When I received my books last week, I freaked out Lord. I pray that feelings go away. I pray that my nervous and wondering will go away. I pray I can be confident that this what YOU want me to be doing. Lord I pray that others opinions of me going back to school will just go away...i pray that I can't hear them! I want to be doing this because YOU want me to be doing this. I pray that I don't give up, just because that is the easier option to do. Lord...I pray I can focus!

Lord, can I do this? I pray I have strength for this year. O Lord, I thank you for this past Summer and all that you showed me! I feel blessed at how you are working my life. I pray that you continue to show me these things and continue to guide me and give me the strength. Lord, I CANNOT do this alone! I"m thankful you are here each step of the way!