I'll Admit

Yesterday I did something that I knew wasn't good, but did it anyways. Well, later that night, I paid the consequences for my poor decision.

Well, I'll admit that yesterday was a low day for me, in the fact that I ate some things that I haven't in about a month or so. I ate Skittles...and 2 donut holes (that were absolutely out of this world, home made, freshly made...yah, need I say more). Ok...most will probably think, seriously...no big deal. Well, right, normally. But I've been SO good at watching what I've been eating, because I'm trying to learn a healthier approach to some things in life, so I've really cut out some of those NON nutritious foods in my life. TO ME...that means I START with those junk foods like Soda, candy, very salty things, major sweets. I start there and work my way to a different level as I get use to even this. Well, so for 2 months almost, I've done pretty well. I haven't had a lick or sip of Soda at all! :) BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT FOR ME...and going strong! I've had some little pieces of candy here and there, but nothing major. And as far as other sweets, we'll, I still like my cookies, there is nothing wrong with still have treats, its all in moderation. You get my point.
So I had some Skittles and some Donut holes (because Pastors wife and kids brought them in for us as a random appreciation). Here is the thing, I knew eating the Skittles (the entire bag) wasn't a good idea. I knew it wasn't the right track for me, but I decided I NEEDED them for some odd reason. And then you add on top of that donut holes (2 big ones that were incredible, did I say that already) :)
Well, by 1:00 my gut felt nasty...seriously. And I knew it was because of it. I thought, serves me right. Well, what do I do 2 hours later, top off the bag of skittles. Really Kelly? Didn't you learn from the first time? I have no idea what was going on with me! :(

Here is the situation...
I go to work out later that night, around 6:30pm. I started out with the weights, as a warm up, and then I decided to move onto the treadmill to do my normal 45 min run. I thought I was doing well, 2 minutes into it, and then around minute 5, I felt nasty! I really didn't think I would even make it to 10 minutes and I thought to myself...STUPID KELLY...THOSE DARN SKITTLES AND DONUTS...STUPID STUPID STUPID!!
I was NOT happy with myself.
I trudged along and finally made it to 10 minutes and I decided to stop running (I never do this, ahh, was that a blow to my self esteem at first) and I decided to walk for a little bit so this gut-wrenching pain can stop. I walked for about 20 minutes and as I did that, this is what came to me:

Sometimes in life we make poor decisions and when we FEED ourselves with unhealthy things, it slows us down in the direction we want to go. If we feed ourselves with gossip, with lies, with addictions, with fiction stories/books, with profanity...ok, the list could go on and on. If we are trying to live a better life or better yet, a life that is Christ-centered, these things in our life will only slow you down from seeing believing what God has in store for you. If I wouldn't have eaten those skittles and donuts, I would have been able to run the race that I HAD intended to run that night. But instead, my race was held back because I choose to eat unhealthy things...therefore effecting my body which resulted in effecting my race.
When you make those decisions and it causes you to slow down and maybe grow weary of this run, you slow down to figure it out and regain what you lost. You use that time to learn from those mistakes. Mistakes will happen, it's HUMAN nature. But its how you recover from that, that matters. Am I just going to keep filling my body (mind) with unhealthy things in life? I sure hope not. But again, I learn from these and I get stronger because of it.
Last night, I walked for a period of time and then I started running. I used the walking period to figure out where I went wrong and to regain the strength my body needed (feeding it back with healthy things) so that I could pick back up and start running again after a period of time.

Lord, I thank you that I ate poor things yesterday so that I could realize how bad that was for my body to experience. Why would I want to do that again? I'm sure I'll make those mistakes again, but what I love is your grace and forgiveness each time we make them. I thank you for the illustration it brought to mind of how those same things can effect us in our Spiritual life/walk. Thank you for what you are doing in my life and I ask for continued strength and guidance at where I am going for you guidance continually.