Two weeks ago I went running and I accomplished a new all-time distance for myself, which was 6.5 miles. That was astonishing for myself. The furthest up to that point that I reached was 4miles. I remember two weeks before I hit 6.5 miles, I told my husband that I think I could do 6 miles, since I've been doing 4 miles pretty well. He said, sure you can!
So I tried it one night, and I was amazed at how well that went and how great it felt. I thought it was going to be terrible, but turns out it was rather awesome! :)
Those that know me best, know that I just don't stop there. I instantly after accomplishing that said, and next is 8 miles! I knew I could do it...I WANTED to do it.
Last night...I started running thinking I would only go for 45 minutes which usually equals 4-5miles for me. Well, once I hit 20 minutes at a little over 2 miles, I thought, "tonight I'm going to do 8 miles!" ah...and ONCE i get that SLIGHTEST THOUGHT in my brain, I HAVE to do!
What do ya know... I DID IT! :) I hit 8 miles last night in 75 minutes. And about 5 minutes after I accomplished it, I said...next is 10miles! ahhh...
How did it feel...NOT as great as 6 miles...but an amazing feeling...nothing like it...weird huh?
Mile 5 was actually the toughest and I thought about how am I going to get 3 more in? I had lost some of my focus during that mile. I was SO focus all the miles before that...that is why I knew I could get 8 miles in that night. I knew I was focus and that I could do it. But then when mile 5 came I couldn't keep focus and I found myself trying to change music too much and get back on track...but it just bugged me. I eventually figure it out and regained my focus and miles 6 and beyond were MUCH better...I was feeling great! That last mile...was very interesting. It's like my body new it was the last mile, so my legs decided to become WOOD. I really am not sure how describe this feeling, but my legs felt like 2x4's...WOOD. Probably numb, but it was like they weren't as strong...but yet I couldn't feel how weak it was either. It was strange. My legs didn't hurt and I felt no cramps...it just felt strange. I ended up pushing up my speed that last mile as well and that actually made my legs feel better!
So what's the point of my story and this accomplishment you probably feel I'm "bragging" about? Well, it got me thinking about how this is a lot of how my life, or any ones life, is. You start out on your journey, not really knowing how long you will go for...but you try to make it as far as you can or as long as you can, until your body eventually shuts down, right? You start out good, and starting, thinking you can go far, but then something along the way pulls at you, tugs you away (mile 5). You can't seem to figure out which direction to go, if you just stop and give up or if you cry out for help to regain the focus in life and continue on with your journey. Now, this doesn't just happen one time in your life...you might cramp up, you might grow weary, you might need some water (refreshment...The Word of God) to keep you going.
What I realized was that my life hit a BIG curve a year ago, shortly after we moved, or maybe it was the move all in general. I had no idea that my life would take a turn like it did. Not that it was terrible or wrong, but I struggled in so many areas that I didn't think I would. I didn't expect my Faith to be rocked liked it did. I didn't expect to question everything in life, everything about my life, and everything about what life would be. That's just it...YOU MIGHT think you have this RUN just fine (mile 2, feeling good), but right when you 'feel good', God will show you some unbelievable things (circumstances)...and it's a matter of how strong are you to keep running through it? It might seem like life around you can't get picked up (like what I felt like), but the truth is...it's not over till you CALL it over. You might struggle for a year, a month, a week...a decade (1 mile, 2 mile, 8 miles)...but no matter what, GOD will bring you through it....but here is the key...are you asking God to bring you through it?
When I hit mile 5 last night, when I struggled and couldn't figure out why my focus was lost (exactly what has happened to me this past year!!!, funny huh?)...but as soon as I dropped my "I got this" attitude with running, I looked back up and focus and said "alright God...if I'm going to make it to mile 8...I need you to help me focus again! I can't do this run without you, without you helping me every step of the way!"
HONESTLY...
and shortly after...my focus came back...my focus WANTED to be there, and God helped me bring it there. Now, He could have made me wait another mile to figure that out and struggle through, like I said...some struggles might be a month, a year...or longer...but sometimes God carries you out sooner.
So...can you go the distance that God has set out for you...even though you have no idea what distance that is? It doesn't matter if your distance is 8 miles or 80 years...Don't look at that as end sight...your end could be when you are 20, when you are 30, when you are 50...or maybe 100. None of us knows when our distance will end...all that we need to be focused on, is where God is taking you NOW and are you living that life HE wants for you. Are you living your life for Him and Him alone? Are you trusting in Him and Him alone?
I pray Lord Jesus, that my distance can go far...not age wise, but I pray that my strength is gained through these struggles. I am blessed for what I've gone through this past year to realize all that I am now and how I feel so much stronger because of it. I know I always have a lot of work to do in this life of mine, but I'm thankful that I have you, God, right here, every day, every minute, every second...helping me and guiding me.
Thank you!
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