There are days

Hebrews 10:35-36

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to
persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he
has promised.”


There are many days lately when I just feel like giving up and just going back to normal. Meaning...school is rough...but I know I can do it. It is hard and it takes so much out of me and the easy solution would be, ahhh...I just want to have a normal life again, where not every night is constant studying and reading. But I'm learning this is the new lifestyle I need to adjust to and that if this is God's will for me to be back in school, then I will have the confidence when I grow weary. I will persevere through the hard nights of frustration.
There have been times during that last few weeks that I have questions that if this is really what God wants me to do. It's rough, but God never said that HIS WILL will be easy. So I know that just because this is HARD, doesn't mean I'm in the wrong Will of God. But I tell ya, I really have doubted on days, if I'm down the right path I thought God was telling me to go down. I keep plugging along and doing the best that I know I can. I give it my all and trust that is good enough and well enough to make it through. I absolutely LOVE what I am learning, as rough and intense as the information gets, I love what I am finding out about US as human beings. It's incredible how our bodies are made, how GOD made them! It's absolutely spectacular!

Lord, thank you for this verse today. I feel like you are telling me that I'm doing again, just keep pressing on to finish. It seems like this semester is so far away from being done...and I already feel like I need a break from constant studying. But Lord, I know you will give me the strength and energy to keep at it every single day! I ask that you do give me the guidance and strength when I grow weary and have the thoughts of "this is too hard." Lord, thank you for what I'm learning and I pray that I can retain this information and truly understand what it all means. I want so bad to completely understand it and not to just skim by in these classes! Its so awesome the stuff I'm learning, but its so in depth that it's hard to figure it all out at the same time or to retain that information. I ask that you help me figure that part of it out. Thank you again Lord for these struggles in this and thank you for what you are doing in my life!