An interesting thing happened to me yesterday.
First of all, I would have posted this last night, but we switched Internet modems or whatever you call those things, so our Internet didnt' work most of the night as we switched that and battled with the thing.
So yesterday was the start of my Spring Semester. One word: YIKES! hahah...bet you thought I'd say overwhelming...ya that would fit too. You'd think I would have learned from last semester NOT to freak out right away about everything, but nope, haven't learned yet...so I guess I need to keep doing this to myself until I do. :)
But what I have to say really has nothing to do with school, or maybe it does. I haven't figured that out yet.
School was good yesterday and I thought I was holding up well. I went and worked out after school as I normally would have done, and came home and just crashed. I honestly feel like I probably would have gotten hit by a truck! Usually my workouts gain me energy and they carry me through the evening hours and I am usually rather productive. But instead, I felt like bricks, I couldn't move, I didn't want to move. I felt terrible, just not motivated at all. It bugged me to no end. Ben came home and he asked about my first day of classes and I just cried!!! O goodness, did that need to come out, I thought. But that wasn't what was bogging me down. I realized later that evening that it was because I drank Hot Chocolate! YEP...i realized I was having a CRASH! THAT is what was making me feel so HEAVY! I couldn't figure out what this heavy feeling was going on with me. I thought it was because of school, but the good cry I had didn't do anything to lighten that, it was a different heavy. And then it came to me...I had Hot Chocolate earlier that day and I was crashing from the sugar.
You see, I don't drink that sort of stuff at all, any of it. It's been 6 months of NO soda, hardly ANY juices, and no hot chocolates. The closest thing I've come to sugar drinks has been Gatorade, and I only grab one of those once a week usually. So when I thought having a hot chocolate on a bitter cold morning to start off my school semester was a good idea, it was the WORST idea ever! NEVER again will I do that. Honestly it proves to me that putting fake things into your body to give you "energy" actually give you LESS energy.
I've been doing nothing but water for 6 months and I've had more energy during this time then ever before. I rarely find myself "crashing" or feeling "heavy."
So what does this have to do with on my spiritual walk with God. Well, LOTS actually. Think about it! When you fill your life with unnecessary things, that don't HELP you, you find yourself getting bogged down, heavy. But when you cleanse yourself of those things you start to realize you were better off without. I haven't had a hot chocolate in awhile and as soon as I do, it bogged me down and made me feel heavy, like i was carrying a burden. For what reason? For a short stint of happiness. Was it worth it...NOT FOR ME IT WASN'T. Just like life, if I choose to walk without God or choose to fill my life with bad TV shows, or video games, INSTEAD of my time with God or looking to Him for guidance, I start to feel bogged down, heavy. Maybe you don't, but I sure do. Those "worldly things" way you down. When was the last time you watched the news? And how did it make you feel? HONESTLY? If it was anything I watched, you probably left watching the news feeling depressed, scared, anxious, and wondering what this World was coming to?! Did that HELP you at all? DOESN'T help me! It makes me feeling BOGGED DOWN AND HEAVY!
So why watch it?
I understand we need to know what is going on in this world. I understand we all want to watch some funny TV (I love certain shows), and I understand we all like to play some games to get our MIND of things. But at the same time, is it really helping to fill your mind with junk, to make you later feel heavy about it?
I don't know...
Just something I'm wondering about...
But all I know is...I'm not drinking Hot Chocolate anymore because it's NOT good for me. And just like I don't watch the NEWS because for ME, it is NOT GOOD for ME! It made me more anxious and stressed than it did good. So I don't do it. So I won't drink the stuff either! :) Just something to think about! I"m not saying don't watch the news...I'm saying watch what you spend your time on and is it really helping you or making you heavy inside just like hot chocolate made me feel heavy. Not a good feeling to have, trust me!
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
A Challenge
Ok, OK...it's been like months since I've actually posted on here...October to be exact. I really didn't like that life (school) consumed my every being last semester. I've realized over the past couple of months, especially the past month, that no matter how busy I get, we get, if you MAKE the time for something, it will happen. I ONLY made time for school, nothing else. So what is more important? Apparently school was the most important thing to me last semester, and yeah, it was rather intense. But...where was my time with God? If you remember, I use this blog to challenge me in my walk with God to be able to see where God has been using me all day long. Well, I wasn't "finding" the time to do that towards the end there.
My new challenge, continue with my original plan and MAKE the time.
God has laid it heavy on my heart that I make time to put work, school, personal time, and my workouts into my daily life each day, so where is my time with God? You have to make it a part of your every day life, just like I make physical activity a constantly daily thing in my life! Ouch, I was hit hard with that one!
Here is something I've been pondering:
My new challenge, continue with my original plan and MAKE the time.
God has laid it heavy on my heart that I make time to put work, school, personal time, and my workouts into my daily life each day, so where is my time with God? You have to make it a part of your every day life, just like I make physical activity a constantly daily thing in my life! Ouch, I was hit hard with that one!
Here is something I've been pondering:
John 15:5,8
"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. ... This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples."
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Where are you at?
There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when it's convenient.
When you are committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results.
When you are committed to something, you accept no excuses; only results.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Fighter
My life has been consumed with nothing, NOTHING, but school...studying that is. I honestly don't like that my life has completely changed. I knew this was going to be hard and I knew it would take a lot of work, but I didn't expect it to run my life.
I'm only 1 1/2 months into this semester and it seems to be going by so SLOW. Every day I go to class (Monday, Wednesday, Friday), I keep saying, is it December yet?
I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I didn't realize my life would be turned upside down.
I've learned to adjust, some days.
The other days I'm just a mess.
Have I wanted to quit, YES. But that would be too easy to do and I would NEVER let myself forget that I quit. That is just not an option for me...I'm not a quitter and those that know me best, know I go down with a fight! hahaha I hope to fuel those emotions to get through this semester.
The funny this is that I've started out really strong in one of my classes and really terrible in the other. How is that possible? I really don't have an answer. But what I've learned in the last month and half is how much I am capable of. I've honestly thought back to my high school days and thought, WOW, so this is what studying could have been like and wow, what would I have been like if I would have applied myself this much in high school?! It honestly makes me sad, but you can't re due the past, you have to just focus on what you have in front of you now. I wish I could re due high school, very much so. Because now I wonder that if I would have actually studied at night and read the chapters, instead of cramming every single night right before a test and really not getting it... I really think I would have been a much smarter person. hahaha...in theory. But again, that is the past.
I'm excited for what I've already learned and it's truly amazing how I've been able to do this. I am tired, I'm burnt out, I'm deprived. I love that I study like I do, but I don't like what it has done either. I am so tired, as I wake up, go to work, go workout, study study study. Repeat x5 days/week. On weekends I wake up, study study study, workout, study study study...MAYBE do a load of laundry as I can remember. I don't see anyone anymore or for that matter, talk to anyone...that is where I'm deprived. Our neighbors, the other day, saw me for the first time in 5 weeks and they were like "ooo you do still live here!" Because before, I was always outside or out and about with my husband constantly. Now all I do is sit inside and read and study.
Last weekend I had a little break down. I was so frustrated with the material, not necessarily because it's hard, it's just SO much you have to learn in SO little time. One chapter alone had over 100 terms I needed to memorize (in 1 weeks time), plus add 2 other chapters on top of that, who also have about 50 terms each to memorize. You get my picture, maybe. Plus on top of that, doing other charts and diagrams for this class too. But I was frustrated because I didn't understand how one person can memorize so much in so little time. And not only that, we had people that wanted to "hang out" with us on Saturday and on Sunday, different people for each days/nights. Ah, I had to tell my husband we couldn't and he completely understood, but I didn't like that it happened. Where was my life? And then on Sunday my husband, after hunting all day, decided to have our neighbors over to grill the ducks/birds they just go...which ended up being a 3 hour extravaganza! :( I was loving having people over, but as soon as they left, at 9:30pm, I FREAKED out and broke down and just was like, "I just wasted 3 hours of time to study!!!!" SERIOUSLY, THAT IS WHAT I SAID.
I wasn't happy with MYSELF that I even would say such a thing. I cried so much that night because I felt like everything has changed so much and I don't think I was ready for this to be this way. I basically made a huge sacrifice by committing to going back to school. I just didn't realize it would mean everything. :(
Here is the thing:
Just like my sacrifice for school and doing homework...I have made the same "sacrifice" to follow Jesus Christ...the difference, I don't see it as a sacrifice, plus I've been following Jesus Christ for 16 years now. I hope I make this point right.
When you, or I have, decided to follow Jesus Christ as my personal Savior and allowed Him into my life and to work in my life as He so desires, I made a sacrifice that my OLD self would DIE and my new self would come alive in Christ.
I died to old ways, ways of this world. I knew my life would be different. I knew I wouldn't be the person that many people out there are. I knew I would make decisions in a different way than many others look at decisions or make those decisions, because with everything in my life comes the same common thing...Jesus Christ. Everything I do, I live and breath Jesus Christ....or least I try to. We are all human and we all make mistakes, I AM NOT PERFECT, NO SINGLE PERSON IS...
This whole back to school thing made me realize what a life changing thing this is, you have to conform to a new way of living. You have to say No to things that aren't good for you. You have to focus and learn what the Bible says (in my school case, what the Human Body says). You read it, you learn it, you MAKE it apart of your daily life. You have "tests". However, I don't really like the word "test" when it comes to "God testing you". I believe he allows things to happen and you have a choice...and no matter what choice you make, God will be with you. But God still puts things in front of you to see how you will react or what path you will choose. Same with school, I have tests. If I don't study, I will probably not be going down a good path. If I don't study the Bible, I probably will make poor decisions and go down a wrong a path. It is VERY important in both cases to study your material and be prepared for what may fall at you.
So this whole school thing...and me freaking out. Yeah, hasn't been fun. But thing of it is, it was MY choice and my choice alone. I am the one that goes to school each day I need to, I'm the one that comprehends the material, I am the one that seeks out the help. No one made me do it, no one is doing it for me. My Faith in Jesus Christ...I MADE the decision to follow Jesus Christ, and I alone came to that decision that I needed Him in my life and believed I will go to Heaven someday because of my faith and trust in Jesus Christ. No one has forced me to make that decision. You will always have people in your life that will encourage you and help you and help you understand what it all means (just like with school, I have a great support system who are my cheerleaders!) :) BUT, on both sides of that, I have people who bring you down. There will be people in your life that make fun of you for your Christian Faith, who say you are "religious" (which, don't get me started on "religious", your faith isn't a religion, it's a relationship!!!) or who mock you or tear you down. I have those same in school who say "just quit if its too hard, or yeah see, you can't do it". But who do I choose to listen to? I CHOOSE to get those people OUT of my life and focus on what I know I can do. I know school is fine, and I also know that those people in my life, that mock my Faith, aren't helping me or encouraging me, so I just pray that God is working in their lives. I will not shun them, but I simple choose to seek different encouragement in my life. I don't need that negativity!
Anyways...times gets rough, but how strong are you to pull through? How strong are you in your Faith? Nothing is meant to be easy...nothing. Not even the Christian Faith, but at least you have someone on your side fighting for you and encouraging you!!! :)
I'm only 1 1/2 months into this semester and it seems to be going by so SLOW. Every day I go to class (Monday, Wednesday, Friday), I keep saying, is it December yet?
I knew it wouldn't be easy, but I didn't realize my life would be turned upside down.
I've learned to adjust, some days.
The other days I'm just a mess.
Have I wanted to quit, YES. But that would be too easy to do and I would NEVER let myself forget that I quit. That is just not an option for me...I'm not a quitter and those that know me best, know I go down with a fight! hahaha I hope to fuel those emotions to get through this semester.
The funny this is that I've started out really strong in one of my classes and really terrible in the other. How is that possible? I really don't have an answer. But what I've learned in the last month and half is how much I am capable of. I've honestly thought back to my high school days and thought, WOW, so this is what studying could have been like and wow, what would I have been like if I would have applied myself this much in high school?! It honestly makes me sad, but you can't re due the past, you have to just focus on what you have in front of you now. I wish I could re due high school, very much so. Because now I wonder that if I would have actually studied at night and read the chapters, instead of cramming every single night right before a test and really not getting it... I really think I would have been a much smarter person. hahaha...in theory. But again, that is the past.
I'm excited for what I've already learned and it's truly amazing how I've been able to do this. I am tired, I'm burnt out, I'm deprived. I love that I study like I do, but I don't like what it has done either. I am so tired, as I wake up, go to work, go workout, study study study. Repeat x5 days/week. On weekends I wake up, study study study, workout, study study study...MAYBE do a load of laundry as I can remember. I don't see anyone anymore or for that matter, talk to anyone...that is where I'm deprived. Our neighbors, the other day, saw me for the first time in 5 weeks and they were like "ooo you do still live here!" Because before, I was always outside or out and about with my husband constantly. Now all I do is sit inside and read and study.
Last weekend I had a little break down. I was so frustrated with the material, not necessarily because it's hard, it's just SO much you have to learn in SO little time. One chapter alone had over 100 terms I needed to memorize (in 1 weeks time), plus add 2 other chapters on top of that, who also have about 50 terms each to memorize. You get my picture, maybe. Plus on top of that, doing other charts and diagrams for this class too. But I was frustrated because I didn't understand how one person can memorize so much in so little time. And not only that, we had people that wanted to "hang out" with us on Saturday and on Sunday, different people for each days/nights. Ah, I had to tell my husband we couldn't and he completely understood, but I didn't like that it happened. Where was my life? And then on Sunday my husband, after hunting all day, decided to have our neighbors over to grill the ducks/birds they just go...which ended up being a 3 hour extravaganza! :( I was loving having people over, but as soon as they left, at 9:30pm, I FREAKED out and broke down and just was like, "I just wasted 3 hours of time to study!!!!" SERIOUSLY, THAT IS WHAT I SAID.
I wasn't happy with MYSELF that I even would say such a thing. I cried so much that night because I felt like everything has changed so much and I don't think I was ready for this to be this way. I basically made a huge sacrifice by committing to going back to school. I just didn't realize it would mean everything. :(
Here is the thing:
Just like my sacrifice for school and doing homework...I have made the same "sacrifice" to follow Jesus Christ...the difference, I don't see it as a sacrifice, plus I've been following Jesus Christ for 16 years now. I hope I make this point right.
When you, or I have, decided to follow Jesus Christ as my personal Savior and allowed Him into my life and to work in my life as He so desires, I made a sacrifice that my OLD self would DIE and my new self would come alive in Christ.
I died to old ways, ways of this world. I knew my life would be different. I knew I wouldn't be the person that many people out there are. I knew I would make decisions in a different way than many others look at decisions or make those decisions, because with everything in my life comes the same common thing...Jesus Christ. Everything I do, I live and breath Jesus Christ....or least I try to. We are all human and we all make mistakes, I AM NOT PERFECT, NO SINGLE PERSON IS...
This whole back to school thing made me realize what a life changing thing this is, you have to conform to a new way of living. You have to say No to things that aren't good for you. You have to focus and learn what the Bible says (in my school case, what the Human Body says). You read it, you learn it, you MAKE it apart of your daily life. You have "tests". However, I don't really like the word "test" when it comes to "God testing you". I believe he allows things to happen and you have a choice...and no matter what choice you make, God will be with you. But God still puts things in front of you to see how you will react or what path you will choose. Same with school, I have tests. If I don't study, I will probably not be going down a good path. If I don't study the Bible, I probably will make poor decisions and go down a wrong a path. It is VERY important in both cases to study your material and be prepared for what may fall at you.
So this whole school thing...and me freaking out. Yeah, hasn't been fun. But thing of it is, it was MY choice and my choice alone. I am the one that goes to school each day I need to, I'm the one that comprehends the material, I am the one that seeks out the help. No one made me do it, no one is doing it for me. My Faith in Jesus Christ...I MADE the decision to follow Jesus Christ, and I alone came to that decision that I needed Him in my life and believed I will go to Heaven someday because of my faith and trust in Jesus Christ. No one has forced me to make that decision. You will always have people in your life that will encourage you and help you and help you understand what it all means (just like with school, I have a great support system who are my cheerleaders!) :) BUT, on both sides of that, I have people who bring you down. There will be people in your life that make fun of you for your Christian Faith, who say you are "religious" (which, don't get me started on "religious", your faith isn't a religion, it's a relationship!!!) or who mock you or tear you down. I have those same in school who say "just quit if its too hard, or yeah see, you can't do it". But who do I choose to listen to? I CHOOSE to get those people OUT of my life and focus on what I know I can do. I know school is fine, and I also know that those people in my life, that mock my Faith, aren't helping me or encouraging me, so I just pray that God is working in their lives. I will not shun them, but I simple choose to seek different encouragement in my life. I don't need that negativity!
Anyways...times gets rough, but how strong are you to pull through? How strong are you in your Faith? Nothing is meant to be easy...nothing. Not even the Christian Faith, but at least you have someone on your side fighting for you and encouraging you!!! :)
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Where is your heart?
Philippians 2:3-4
“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value
others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to
the interests of the others.”
This could go on the lines of complaining that I talked about the other day. If you are complaining about others, you are not holding others above yourself.
I'm having a rough time with this one and this has been a real challenge for me lately. I feel like my life is filled with hearing complaints. I get them from/at work, I get them with school, I get them from home. When life is filled with so many complaints, how is someone suppose to look positive in that. Like I said the other day...when you surround yourself with complaints, you will complain. I'm trying so hard to get away from it, but I keep getting hit with them. My boss/Pastor yesterday even told me, "now Kelly, think positive that they will have a good attitude about this!" So I thought, ya, you are right Jeff, I'll change my attitude and think positive! And I was!! I thought, OK, this is alright. If you start thinking positive about things people may surprise you.
Well, I was doing well up until 8:30 this morning when I received a rather complaining phone call about the exact matter that I was talking to Pastor about yesterday. I crumbled! And I just thought, really? Why Lord? Why?! How are you suppose to think positive and give people a chance when I KNEW it would turn this way AND IT DID! I'd like to say, my point made! But I won't. :) THIS is why I struggle so much to be positive and not complain myself. I know that not everyone is like this and it could have turned out different. I know that. I also know that God is showing me something through this and I instant turn to Him and say, "Ok God, what now? Now what do I do and how do I take this?" I don't expect Him to answer today, but I know that my attitude will turn positive and I'll move on. I know that one thing won't bring me down, as much as I wanted it to this morning.
What can change this? ME. I can BE positive and NOT complain and pray that when those around me complain, I can have deaf ears.
“Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value
others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to
the interests of the others.”
This could go on the lines of complaining that I talked about the other day. If you are complaining about others, you are not holding others above yourself.
I'm having a rough time with this one and this has been a real challenge for me lately. I feel like my life is filled with hearing complaints. I get them from/at work, I get them with school, I get them from home. When life is filled with so many complaints, how is someone suppose to look positive in that. Like I said the other day...when you surround yourself with complaints, you will complain. I'm trying so hard to get away from it, but I keep getting hit with them. My boss/Pastor yesterday even told me, "now Kelly, think positive that they will have a good attitude about this!" So I thought, ya, you are right Jeff, I'll change my attitude and think positive! And I was!! I thought, OK, this is alright. If you start thinking positive about things people may surprise you.
Well, I was doing well up until 8:30 this morning when I received a rather complaining phone call about the exact matter that I was talking to Pastor about yesterday. I crumbled! And I just thought, really? Why Lord? Why?! How are you suppose to think positive and give people a chance when I KNEW it would turn this way AND IT DID! I'd like to say, my point made! But I won't. :) THIS is why I struggle so much to be positive and not complain myself. I know that not everyone is like this and it could have turned out different. I know that. I also know that God is showing me something through this and I instant turn to Him and say, "Ok God, what now? Now what do I do and how do I take this?" I don't expect Him to answer today, but I know that my attitude will turn positive and I'll move on. I know that one thing won't bring me down, as much as I wanted it to this morning.
What can change this? ME. I can BE positive and NOT complain and pray that when those around me complain, I can have deaf ears.
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Complaining
I've been learning a lot about what dedication and perseverance means. I listened to a great message last night while I was running and it talked about complaining...which is actually the second message of this. It's fitting for some struggles I'm going through regarding my work situation. I love my job I do and I love where I work. My biggest struggle is LISTENING to the complaining. What I've noticed is that when you hear complaining and are constantly around negative things in your life, it starts to pull you down.
Well, that is what has been happening to me. These negative "complaining" comments keep bringing me down, to the point where I have started to complain as well. This is something I learned from the message:
If you are complaining, you are not allowing God to WORK in the situation. You are actually hindering his ability to work in the situation. Interesting. So if you continually complain about something, ITS NEVER GOING TO GET FIXED because God isn't able to work in YOUR life to either see you see a different perspective or vs versa.
Interesting...
So instead of complaining about a job, or people, or bad decisions others have made that effect outcomes (no, I'm not referring to football with the refs). Maybe instead be THANKFUL for what you do have? Your life needs to be in CONSTANT thanksgiving! Not just on Thanksgiving, BUT CONSTANTLY IN THANKSGIVING.
I find this funny and neat, because a week ago I was having a conversation with our Pastor about how I get caught up in the why "worldly" people think and it brings me down just with that. I told him that I'm not jealous of things others have or anything like that, because I honestly, fully heartily LOVE the life I have. So why do I want to pick on others with their life or why do I even look at others lives and compare them? He said... "are you truly thankful for what you have?" He just said in order to change your attitude you need to be in constant thankfulness for what you do have, just like you are telling me now. You say you are thankful, but are you truly thankful every day for the circumstances God has given you? woah...interesting thought!
So I went home and made a little poster that says "Blessings from God" and hung it on our fridge. And every time we are "thankful" or "blessed" for/by something, we write it down. I LOVE IT. My husband has really gotten into doing this (because we've both struggled with this) and it's been a blast to see what we've come up with.
But this is the point...CONSTANT thanksgiving WILL change your attitude about stuff and will result in LESS if not NO complaining! I don't know about you, but I want POSITIVE things in my life, I don't want to hear complaining.
A verse stuck out to me and it has nothing to do with complaining or thanksgiving....BUT it will help you "persevere" through those times! :)
Romans 5:3-4
“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that
suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character,
hope.”
Well, that is what has been happening to me. These negative "complaining" comments keep bringing me down, to the point where I have started to complain as well. This is something I learned from the message:
If you are complaining, you are not allowing God to WORK in the situation. You are actually hindering his ability to work in the situation. Interesting. So if you continually complain about something, ITS NEVER GOING TO GET FIXED because God isn't able to work in YOUR life to either see you see a different perspective or vs versa.
Interesting...
So instead of complaining about a job, or people, or bad decisions others have made that effect outcomes (no, I'm not referring to football with the refs). Maybe instead be THANKFUL for what you do have? Your life needs to be in CONSTANT thanksgiving! Not just on Thanksgiving, BUT CONSTANTLY IN THANKSGIVING.
I find this funny and neat, because a week ago I was having a conversation with our Pastor about how I get caught up in the why "worldly" people think and it brings me down just with that. I told him that I'm not jealous of things others have or anything like that, because I honestly, fully heartily LOVE the life I have. So why do I want to pick on others with their life or why do I even look at others lives and compare them? He said... "are you truly thankful for what you have?" He just said in order to change your attitude you need to be in constant thankfulness for what you do have, just like you are telling me now. You say you are thankful, but are you truly thankful every day for the circumstances God has given you? woah...interesting thought!
So I went home and made a little poster that says "Blessings from God" and hung it on our fridge. And every time we are "thankful" or "blessed" for/by something, we write it down. I LOVE IT. My husband has really gotten into doing this (because we've both struggled with this) and it's been a blast to see what we've come up with.
But this is the point...CONSTANT thanksgiving WILL change your attitude about stuff and will result in LESS if not NO complaining! I don't know about you, but I want POSITIVE things in my life, I don't want to hear complaining.
A verse stuck out to me and it has nothing to do with complaining or thanksgiving....BUT it will help you "persevere" through those times! :)
Romans 5:3-4
“Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that
suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character,
hope.”
Monday, September 24, 2012
There are days
Hebrews 10:35-36
“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to
persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he
has promised.”
There are many days lately when I just feel like giving up and just going back to normal. Meaning...school is rough...but I know I can do it. It is hard and it takes so much out of me and the easy solution would be, ahhh...I just want to have a normal life again, where not every night is constant studying and reading. But I'm learning this is the new lifestyle I need to adjust to and that if this is God's will for me to be back in school, then I will have the confidence when I grow weary. I will persevere through the hard nights of frustration.
There have been times during that last few weeks that I have questions that if this is really what God wants me to do. It's rough, but God never said that HIS WILL will be easy. So I know that just because this is HARD, doesn't mean I'm in the wrong Will of God. But I tell ya, I really have doubted on days, if I'm down the right path I thought God was telling me to go down. I keep plugging along and doing the best that I know I can. I give it my all and trust that is good enough and well enough to make it through. I absolutely LOVE what I am learning, as rough and intense as the information gets, I love what I am finding out about US as human beings. It's incredible how our bodies are made, how GOD made them! It's absolutely spectacular!
Lord, thank you for this verse today. I feel like you are telling me that I'm doing again, just keep pressing on to finish. It seems like this semester is so far away from being done...and I already feel like I need a break from constant studying. But Lord, I know you will give me the strength and energy to keep at it every single day! I ask that you do give me the guidance and strength when I grow weary and have the thoughts of "this is too hard." Lord, thank you for what I'm learning and I pray that I can retain this information and truly understand what it all means. I want so bad to completely understand it and not to just skim by in these classes! Its so awesome the stuff I'm learning, but its so in depth that it's hard to figure it all out at the same time or to retain that information. I ask that you help me figure that part of it out. Thank you again Lord for these struggles in this and thank you for what you are doing in my life!
“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to
persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he
has promised.”
There are many days lately when I just feel like giving up and just going back to normal. Meaning...school is rough...but I know I can do it. It is hard and it takes so much out of me and the easy solution would be, ahhh...I just want to have a normal life again, where not every night is constant studying and reading. But I'm learning this is the new lifestyle I need to adjust to and that if this is God's will for me to be back in school, then I will have the confidence when I grow weary. I will persevere through the hard nights of frustration.
There have been times during that last few weeks that I have questions that if this is really what God wants me to do. It's rough, but God never said that HIS WILL will be easy. So I know that just because this is HARD, doesn't mean I'm in the wrong Will of God. But I tell ya, I really have doubted on days, if I'm down the right path I thought God was telling me to go down. I keep plugging along and doing the best that I know I can. I give it my all and trust that is good enough and well enough to make it through. I absolutely LOVE what I am learning, as rough and intense as the information gets, I love what I am finding out about US as human beings. It's incredible how our bodies are made, how GOD made them! It's absolutely spectacular!
Lord, thank you for this verse today. I feel like you are telling me that I'm doing again, just keep pressing on to finish. It seems like this semester is so far away from being done...and I already feel like I need a break from constant studying. But Lord, I know you will give me the strength and energy to keep at it every single day! I ask that you do give me the guidance and strength when I grow weary and have the thoughts of "this is too hard." Lord, thank you for what I'm learning and I pray that I can retain this information and truly understand what it all means. I want so bad to completely understand it and not to just skim by in these classes! Its so awesome the stuff I'm learning, but its so in depth that it's hard to figure it all out at the same time or to retain that information. I ask that you help me figure that part of it out. Thank you again Lord for these struggles in this and thank you for what you are doing in my life!
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