words don't describe

I don't even really know how to write this one. I'm in awe at what some people think or say or even do. I really just shake my head and thinks, REALLY?? - yeah, that is the word that best describes this...really?

I'm really honestly tired of caring about so many things right now. And it's not that some of those things even have to do with me, but I carry that burden. Why? I'm so frustrated with myself that I do this.
Here is an example.
I come into work today to a note on my desk that states: "Why make us stand for 20-25 minutes? Is this really necessary?" - and the person actually left their name.
Honestly...I would LOVE to respond to this person too...

I shake my head and think, really?! First of all, if it is that much of a bother for you to stand for 20-25 minutes...NO ONE is forcing you to stand. Second of all, then sit...again, no one is stopping you. And my biggest grip I have about this...since when is such a harm to stand for that long. You probably stand longer when you do dishes. And not only that...BE THANKFUL that you even CAN STAND and that you can stand TO WORSHIP God. That is what it is all about. Every time I get tired even grip about the food I eat...you know what I honestly think about...those overseas (or not even overseas, those in our own country) who CAN'T worship God and aren't even allowed to have "church". And when they do get together to worship God, its in tiny quarters and everyone has to stand...through EVERYTHING...through signing, through the sermon, prayer...at least we get to sit during that. So I ask...Is 20 minutes of your life standing really that much to grip about? When others around the country, around the world, aren't even ABLE to go to church?! I think we are pretty darn lucky. We should be over joyed and thankful that we get to stand up and praise God and worship Him every single week with not a fear in the world that something will happen to us for doing that.

I really hate that I get so wrapped up into how people think and why they think things and why I care so much to make it right. I know this is not a reflection on me or has anything to do with my job. I'm just the messenger. But even at that...it's just funny what people come up with, but after it's done being funny...I'm saddened for that persons heart! Because that person has some things going on within their heart that makes them "lash out" and make comments about things that are just so unnecessary. It makes me sad...
and what can I do? All I can do is pray for that person and pray for their heart!

Am I Not Trusting?

I think God has really been laying stuff on my heart lately, things that I can't even understand. I've been really struggling now for about a month on a few different areas of my life. And I think today, it all came to a head. Or at least, I think so.
I've been contemplating a job decision for a month now and I haven't come to grips with actually deciding on it. And I think God is making me finally decide. At least, that is what I think. I've come to realize that my healthy and "life" is more important. I think God is showing me that in multiple ways.
And today, I struggled so much this morning with a few different things, and I still couldn't even come to say..."this is what I'm going to do". And I think the reason I'm struggling so bad, is because I'm TRYING to FIX this problem or this decision ON MY OWN. And I've constantly been hearing God say to me, all day, "Are you going to trust me?"....."Are you going to trust me now?"....."Please just trust me Kelly, Do you trust me?"

Why is it so hard to let God just work?! Why is it so hard that I always try to be the tough gal and figure it all out. Why is it so hard that my pride doesn't want to fall and give in. Why is it so hard for me to just LET GO and see what amazing things God is going to heal in my life. ? Why is it so hard to let God work. Why is it so hard...to TRUST?
And it's not like I'm trying to trust a friend of mine who has done me wrong...GOD HAS NEVER done me wrong. So why is it so hard to trust someone who has done nothing but GOOD in my life (even when I have thought it wasn't, and it always turns out good). ??? why?? why? why??

So today...I decide to trust! I decide to let go of my fears I'm having right now...and I decide to give them to God and trust that He will help me and not ask why anymore.

Lord, I'm still not sure what is going on and I'm incredible scared. But I know for my health and for my life, I need to do what you have been showing me to do. And maybe it is that simple, that after I figure this out and trust you, that everything else will start to get better. But Lord Jesus, I ask that you just comfort me and help me know that you are here and that I do trust you and that I can feel OK, again. Lord I want to do what is best for our family...and Lord, is this what you are showing me?
Lord I trust you, that everything else will be OK, that you will guide us through this. I thank you for helping me trust you and let go. O Lord, I'm uncertain, but I know you always are. Please give me the peace I need...give me the strength to let go!

Time will Tell

So I started writing this one last week, on Friday, March 30. Never finished it because of a crazy weekend!

Today, Friday, March 30, marks 1 year of our move to the Northwoods! I think back to what a year was and I'm blown away by what God has done and show BOTH of us. This post isn't going to be anything really inspirational, just inspirational for me and what God has done in a years time...and I like to say, that ONLY time WILL tell...and I'm starting to realize that more and more in life. Life isn't about a quick fix...nothing is a quick fix these days. You need TIME to heal, TIME to grow, and TIME to LET GOD WORK!

• 1 year ago, we left our comfortable duplex and nice neighborhood
• For a place that was TINY and (at first) seemed like a sketchy neighborhood
• We left our friendships that we have developed over the course of 8 years, and many that developed since we had gotten married
• For NO ONE, at least for a long time (it would seem)
• I left a job that I had for 5 years that I grew into and absolutely loved and took pride it what gifts God was giving me through this job!
• For absolutely NO JOB! and no prospects even in sight!
• A church that we loved, grew in and developed our relationship in and through.
• And traded that in for a small, quiet Northwoods church.
• We left the conveniences of life, the simplest of grocery shopping (we love Festival Foods), every day shopping, and many more that we would soon realize.
• For 2 MAIN stores, Walmart and Trigs. Both OK, but NOT what we have been use to.
• We left NOT knowing what sticker shock would soon feel like (prices in La Crosse area, are cheaper)
• For sticker shock the first couple nights we went to the grocery store!!! YIKES!
• A fitness place I grew into and really enjoyed who and what I was working out with.
• For the same place of fitness facility, but run down, and with equipment that was foreign to me and NOT updated whatsoever! And with NO ONE to push me at workout!
• The simplicity of doing laundry AT HOME.
• For our washer and dryer to NOT even CLOSE fit downstairs at our tiny house and to have our washer hooked up in our kitchen with the extra tubing going down the stairs and hooked up (worked for a few months aways) and had the clothes drying outside...and NOW to do laundry at the MAT every week for 2 hours.

I traded all of that, and this is what I gained~

• Rest. Time of refreshing during the months I searched for a job.
• God showed me "Enjoy this Time" and what it meant! (something He showed me in the first month we moved here).
• God showed me an appreciation for the Northwoods, for the nature that exists up here!
• The beautiful Spring
• The MANY Lakes
• The beautiful Rivers
• The amazing amounts of State and County Land that exists for everyone to enjoy!
• The interesting amounts of wildlife (my favorite...moose!), but I've gotta say, seeing bears in person, really a weird feeling and just neat!
• A wonderful neighborhood that has been a joy to walk our dog and going running to the park (that is only 3/4 mile away).
• A church that focuses on "Transforming Lives" and has welcomed us many times over from day one of stepping into that church.
• Men's Bible Study for my husband that has been very encouraging to him
• Accountability Men's groups for my husband that has challenged him and how I've seen him grow ridiculous amounts in only a short amount of time.
• A job that gave me my first "friends" in the Northwoods and has shown me my strengths and weaknesses with management. But has also given me the CHANCE to learn this!
• Another job that allowed me to meet more people and friends and the community better.
• And a job at a church (the one we attend) that has made me feel like "home" and gave me the opportunity all over again to use the gifts God has given me.
• Friends through our church that have reached out to us, encouraged us and want to know us!
• A fitness facility that I've LEARNED to like and now, have established great workout partners that have pushed me more in my workouts than ever before.
• The time at the Laundry Mat to read, to plan meals and THINK. (A hard one for me to admit that spending 2 hours at the laundry mat is actually a blessing).
• A deeper connection with husband than we've ever had before (because all we had for the first 4 months, was each other!)
• I've learned how to plan out meals (during those months of no job and time at the laundry mat) and how to shop WISELY in this crazy sticker shock I've had.
• A Pastor, and fellow co-worker, who has taught me so much about how to handle situations and how God views things about me. He has shown me more about self-worth than anyone I've known.
• The joy of true "winter" in the North
• The fun looking for a house...which turns to struggles, but through that, have learned so much about what God is showing both of us!
• A job my husband loves, appreciates and is growing so much in! He has really find his passion and love with this job and is able to USE it fully! He is HAPPY!
• And most importantly...a deeper relationship with Jesus Christ because these gains wouldn't have existed if I didn't put my trust in Jesus Christ each day we've had knowing that He will see us through it all. And that HE HAS and STILL IS!

I feel blessed to have moved and for how God has worked in our lives during this year! I'm in tears thinking about a year ago and how much pain I felt that day we pulled out with the Uhaul truck and then that first night in our new place. The tears aren't because it makes me sad again, its tears because of what we've gone through in the year and what we've gained because of it!!! How did we get so blessed to learn all of this and realize all of this stuff?!

Thank you SO MUCH Lord Jesus for bring us to where we are. Thank you for the pain I felt, for the loneliness, because in that loneliness, I had you! You are all I needed and that is exactly what you were showing me! Thank you! Thank you for a job my husband LOVES! thank you for providing us each and every day with what we've needed! I pray that you continue to show us and guide us on this adventure. For an adventure doesn't stop at 1 year, it continues. So i pray that even though we've hit that milestone of a year...it continues on in all that things you are doing in our lives!

I praise you Lord Jesus for this time!

You Can't Do It Alone

Short and sweet...
You just simply can't do life alone without God in your life! I've always know this, but actually living it is different. Why?
Well, let me ask you this...
Do you include Him (meaning God Himself) in your daily life? And I don't mean just that you think about God and somewhat act in a "Christian" way.
But do you ACTUALLY include Him in your daily life? Do you talk to Him about your joys, about your struggles, about your nerves, about your frustrations, about your excitement?
Do you?
I know I don't!
A lot of times I think people think that because they are "A Believer" or "A Christian", then yeah, duh, God is with me all the time. Yeah, He is, but do you actually ACT like it?
Take for example.
My husband...he is apart of my life, I wake up with him, I go to sleep with him, I converse with him over email or through the phone through the day, and on good days, we get to have dinner together. And then at night, we get to relax together, share how our day was, and go to bed.
Your relationship with God Himself, so be NO different, in fact, it should be MORE.
I go to my husband for almost everything!!! Even the silliest of things that he probably thinks I'm a weirdo for. But you know why I do? Because I want to share my weirdo life with my husband...whether he likes it or not! God is the same way. He wants to know if you had an awesome time having lunch with someone that day. He wants to know that you struggled during an activity. He wants to hear the excitement when you accomplished a goal. He wants to know your frustration you had at work that day. Yeah, He knows all, but are you actually talking with Him about it?
It would be like me and my husband...he is always there...but if I don't INCLUDE him in what is going on in my life, what is the point of this relationship anyways? To run to him when I've finally fallen apart and need him. No, that isn't how a marriage works and neither does your relationship with Jesus Christ!
You still need to include Him in your DAILY life!
If you give ALL to Jesus Christ and let Him take care of your joys, struggles, frustrations, worries, anxieties, and so on...life would be so much easier. But you need to give it to Him and let him carry the burden for you. I know a lot of times when I talk with my husband about things, all of a sudden I feel like he is there and carrying that weight with me...IMAGINE if we did that with everything and took it to God as well! Wehew!
That's what I say, WHEW!

O Lord Jesus, help me to include you in my everyday. Why is it so hard for us to do that? I keep thinking, I include my husband in most everything, why is it so hard for me to not turn to with everything as well? I pray that I can turn to you with my joys, my excitement, my frustrations, my concerns, my anxieties, and o SO much more!
I thank you, that you are always there...I just want to turn to you more Lord.

Outreach

Here is something that bothered me last night. I meant to write this on here last night, but didn't get home till later and by the time I was home, I was exhausted from another long day.

I guess you could call it a pet-peeve of mine with "religion". And I don't even like to use the word "religion" because I don't feel I have a religion, I have a relationship. But most see it as what religion you are or what not. So I'll just use that word. So here is my pet-peeve.

Outreach. What does that mean? And how is suppose to do it? I have many thoughts about this area, probably not what most would agree with, and I'm OK with that. Because what I believe, is in my heart, and I know that God has given me this passion on outreach.

Outreach to me, means reaching out to those in need. Now when I say "in need" I don't mean those that are homeless on the streets. Sure, that is part of it, but to people who have struggles with finances, with relationships, with housing, with medical problems. So on. My heart has been called to "outreach" to those people, to seek them out and build a relationship with these people, maybe be people I know very well, or it may be people I met only once. It might be my neighbor, it might be someone far far away. Either way, I feel it my heart to outreach.
But here is my pet-peeve...why WAIT to outreach to someone. Meaning, so many times people think that the CHURCH need to outreach to people. Why? Who says the church has to do anything? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GO DO IT?! Why do we have to wait for the church to create a "program" so that we can then outreach. I'm sorry, but nothing is stopping me from outreaching to those that I feel called to outreach to. If you have kids in your neighborhood that you want to "outreach to", DO IT? Why wait until there is something called "VBS" at your local church in the summer to go do it? If you have a neighbor who you just found out was a Buddhist, why wait for the church to come up with something to outreach to Buddhist, NO, you outreach to them on your own. The church does play a role in this, YES! To me, that is EQUIPPING YOU! The church is there for you to equip you and give you the knowledge so that when you HAVE those opportunities to "outreach" you do it!
Outreach is an EVERYDAY thing, not just an "event". I feel outreach is to my co-workers in the secular world. It's to the lady at subway who makes my sandwich every time I go in (who now has it memorized what I get and starts making it as soon as I walk in the door). :) see... RIGHT THERE...I'm BUILDING a relationship with this and when God gives the right time, I simple outreach to that person in normal every day life!
I struggle so much with this one, because I just don't understand why people have to wait for the church to do things. JUST DO IT. No where in the Bible (to my knowledge) does it say that "the church", "the church", "the church" does this or this...YOU ARE THE CHURCH...so do it!
If you have a neighbor or a friend who needs help because they are laid up or without work, o goodness, yeah, it's nice to come to the church to ask what to do...but why EXPECT the church to do something? Aren't you apart of the church? I sure hope so, so than wouldn't that be YOU doing something? If you can't do it all to help this person, bring along your other church friends and do it together...that right there is an INCREDIBLE OUTREACH!

The church isn't stopping you from doing anything...you are stopping yourself!
Ask God where you can be used, and HE WILL show you. Please don't wait for an event or activity to then find that as a way to outreach...those are just tools to help you. Don't use it as the ONLY way!

O Lord Jesus, this is heavy on my heart today. I feel like crying out and asking why so many people live in a way that is in a box and stuck on what they desire, but don't look to what they can do. I know their intentions are there, but Lord, I just pray that these people can see YOU in all areas, not just in programs. I don't like that people get frustrated with "the church" not doing anything, but are they doing anything to help that? I hate that I feel they are using the church as a crutch, or an excuse for them not doing anything! I pray people would just do it...I pray that you would work in peoples lives to see it as an everyday ministry! Lord, take this weight I feel about this and just carry it for me. thank you for what you've laid on my heart and I thank you for giving me the heart to help people. I pray that you continue to show me ways in which I can be used, big or small. It's a scary thing, but I'm so excited for what you can do through me! Ah Lord, take this weight.

Common word: Trust

A lot of things I've been reading or coming across lately has one common word: TRUST

Um...you think God is trying to tell me something, perhaps! :)

I have a verse of the day that always pops up in my email, and today I opened my email and I read this:

Jeremiah 17:7-8
"But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.";


I smile!

Another neat thing...I've been reading a book I received when I was probably 6. I don't know, I just remember be small, and my best friend at the time had given it to me. I remember my mom reading stories to my brother and I out of it when I had first gotten it. I have kept this book all my life, this book of Bible stories. I don't know, as a kid, if I ever read all of them. My guess is NOT. My husband laughs at me and gives me grief about how I keep things and hold onto things. If you look at our bookshelves right now, you will see that half of the books on there are from my childhood. Why? Well, one reason is I didn't want them boxed up, getting musty and moldy in our current housing situation. But you know, since I have had them out and on the bookshelves, I've probably picked up about 4-6 of them and read them! Who says you have to be a kid to read these?
And that brings me back to this book. I have 2 children's Bible Story books that I have on my bookshelf and they have been starring at me for a few months now. There have been a few conversations that I've been in, that I hear someone talk about a story in the Bible, and I have NO CLUE what they are talking about. And I think to myself, WHY do I not know this and how stupid that I don't know this, as I have been in a relationship with Jesus Christ since I was 12 years old....thats around 15 years ago!! It has made me said. And so I think to myself, HOW do I figure these stories out. Then I work at a church, and there are little kids that know more about the Bible, than I do! That is AWESOME, but I just feel like a complete idiot. Yes, I do.
But you see, I never grew up with going to Sunday School or going to Awana. And that is where the majority of these kids get their stories, their foundation. I feel I never really had that foundation. The only foundation I have, is just my faith and trust and relationship I have with Jesus Christ. Sure, that is VERY important...but you still need to KNOW God.
So that brings me back to picking up this Children's book. I figure, I'll be a kid again, I'll learn like a kid learns, because that seems to really work!! Other things I've tired, just hasn't connect with me. I"ve tried "adult" books and even picking up the Bible itself and trying to read through it. But I get lost.
So I figured, lets get that kid foundation! :)

And last night, I read about the "First Crime" (Genesis 4) and when Cain kills Abel. I knew this story, but what hit me last night was this. Cain and Abel had sinful hearts, just like Adam & Eve (their parents). One day, Cain brought a gift to the Lord. It was some of his fruits. It was only a gift of fruit; there was no real thanks in his heart. Abel brought a little lamb from his flock. He offered the lamb to God with true thankfulness and trust in God's promise. He knew that he was sinful, and did not deserve the blessings of God.
**God can see ever man's heart. He is not interested in your gifts unless you bring them with a thankful and a trusting heart. God accepted Abel's gift, but He did not accept Cain's. When Cain saw that Abel's gift was accepted, but his was not, his face grew black with anger. God says if you bring an offering in the right spirit, your offering with be accepted too. Do not allow these angry thoughts to fill your mind. Sin is like a wild animal. It is always waiting to jump on you and choke you! You might know what happens, and that is that Cain killed Abel because of his jealousy of his brother Abel.
O my goodness...so SO so much has come out of this for me. First of all. That I need to have a thankful heart to God in the blessings He has given me and that when I give back, it is NOT to come because we "have to" or we "should" or we feel guilted to because of this. It's out of true thankfulness! And God knows when we have that and when we do not. So check your heart, check my heart, before you offer up to God. If your heart isn't in it, then why are you doing it? So many times we are just in a routine of writing out a check as part of our monthly expenses. It's NOT an expense...It should be the FIRST thing you give to God, not the last. And after that is when comes the trust and faith.
Second of all...jealous. Holy Moly can this eat you alive! Right?! Did you not read what I wrote...Cain did not listen to God's warning. He was jealous of his brother. Am I aware of my jealous I have in life? Yes, but what am I doing about it? I know I am aware of it and I am listening to God about the warning from this...so what do I do about it?! I take what God is telling me and I do it! Simple right? Sure. But what hit me was the fact that sin (jealousy) is like a wild animal. It is always waiting to jump on you and choke you! These issues I have, are choking me alive! And how will I respond? I ask God to take the sinful heart of mine and work in my heart and let me breath. He will. Ask long as I ask God to help me with this.
Thirdly...Trust! Do I trust God? I sure do. But do I always live it out that way. No, none of us do. We are all sinful. But then I read Jeremiah 17:7-8 this morning and I just smiled. God is once again showing me TRUST. I hear God saying, "Trust me Kelly. Trust me that I will help you get through some of this struggles you are facing. Trust me that I will provide for you. Trust me that I will allow things to happen in my time. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. I am here for you Kelly, just come to me."
yeah...that is exactly how I hear it. I just hear God and I feel his comfort in this. It's an overwhelming feeling and I feel so incredible blessed by this. I am blessed that this children's Bible stories I am reading over is blessing me. I thank God that He has this book in my life, over all these years. I know I remember some of it from when I was little, but I am thankful that now today, after 15 years, I am still seeing these kids stories more impactful than anything else. I don't think it matters where it comes from, as long as God is speaking to you and teaching you. And that is just what is happening! Thank you God for bringing this back into my life. I pray Lord Jesus, that these word I read, that they would dwell in my heart. Thank you that this is a way that you are speaking to me! Thank you! I pray that I can change my heart towards things and that you can work in my life and help me. I need you to help me get through them. Thank you Lord Jesus!

It's Not Mine

I had someone special and dear to me ask me yesterday for some perspective. I was honored that they asked me what I thought of the situation.
As I wrote my perspective out, I realized more and more how we all need this perspective on life, in no matter WHAT situation we are in.

This person has been dealing with some struggles with things piling up, one after another, and not understanding why. I will NEVER know why! First problems with things in their house, then another major problem with something in their house and now medical bills for something that problem seems like it shouldn't have happened...but it still did.
Here is what I told this person:


I feel like I can relate because of"PERSEVERANCE". Sometimes I feel like the struggles I face, with finding a house, with family struggles, with finances, yes. I feel like through it, every time it comes to do I trust God? Do I trust that God will lead us to a house, YES, i firmly do. But why isn't anything happening...BECAUSE He is shaping both of us through this long and frustrating process. We have learned through it that we are blessed to just BE IN A HOUSE, even if it is
renting...we've been learning a lot about each other and we've seen God work in our hearts regarding OUR finances.
Then with family struggles...this is a funny one. Because the things I struggle with with family things, are things that just have to do with ME. And its GOD showing me how areas of my life need more work, or how he stretches me to build my trust in Him and how I need to continually LET THINGS GO. And God knows how much I struggle with holding onto things in my life and
NOT letting HIM take it...let HIM take the burden. I have a hard time letting God handle my burden, when he specifically has told us to give it to Him. So through those things...even with the house too, God is teaching me to give those up to Him and not dwell on the situation and to take the time to reflect on what God has in this situation to grow me and mature me and shape me. Very humbling...

And then with finances...we struggle, just like you. Just when we feel we are getting ahead on something, something happens, mostly medical things, or car issues. But what I’ve learned through it as well, is how much do I trust God that He will provide for us during that. It could have been worse, and that is how I feel God has shown me things through finances. When a
medical bill comes across, i grumble and think, "my stupid jaw, can't i just have a new mouth!" hahaha...but no...God created me this way and I'm thankful for it. At least I can eat! It could be worse. And I TRUST God that IN TIME, He will provide for us. And as much as i hate payments and hate that i have that lingering on in my heart and head...I do know that in time, God will
provide us with money to pay it off...and in the meantime, i make payments for what I can!

I've also learned that God is teaching me things about finances through it. It's HIS money, not ours. And He doesn't mean for these things to happen, but I do believe He teaches us things about "our" money and how we are using "our/his" money. I'm not saying that you guys are frugal with your money, i know you are not. Maybe this is a way of God bringing you back to Him WITH your finances. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW the study you guys went through and how that changed your perspective on how you give...BUT DON'T look at it that way. Don’t look at it in a way of why? Look at it in a way of OK God, what are you showing me here in my life that I need to work on more? HE KNOWS you give and give and give...and that is awesome!! But maybe He is showing you something else with your finances. Maybe he is trying to show you that ALL your money is His...not just that, that you give to others. I know you know this...

He wants you to trust him in all things...even this. He will provide to you...but will you trust that He will? Don’t look at it as a huge bill, look at it as YOU ARE HEATHY and NOT more seriously hurt than that. Goodness...I know this is hard. Because i think that same way...and think, OMG
how will i get through this bill!!!!???!! but you know what...YOU DO WHAT YOU CAN, and you will be blessed by God, maybe not right away, but you never know how God will bless you through this. God never said things would be easy or that we wouldn't have struggles. He says we will have struggles...it's a matter of how you respond to them. So I ask that you respond to God rejoicing, and ask Him for help through this. Ask Him to show you what He wants to show you
through this!

I write this and think to myself...goodness...I know I will face something like this someday too, and i wonder how I would respond. And I pray I would respond just how i am talking to you. Harder when you are on the opposite end. So maybe this is a good lesson for me as well, for the
future...or even currently with some of things I’m battling with! :)
Funny how that works out.

O Lord Jesus...I pray for my **********. What a sweet soul this person is and how they just wants to do what you desire for their life. I pray that in this situation at hand that you take there fears and frustrations and anxieties away right now. I pray that they turn to you and seek you out for
how to handle this and how to rejoice in you for this. I pray that they find comfort knowing that you are in control and that you WILL see them through on this financial burden they feel!!! It's
not a burden for them to carry and I pray that they see that and don't feel it as a burden from you. Lord, bless them and give them comfort. I thank you Jesus that ********* was not hurt more than this! How scary and to think it was only a big lip and sore tooth. It could have been head damage and so much more. Thank you for protecting and watching over. I pray they see it as a blessing and not as a problem. Lord Jesus, I ask that you bless them beyond what they can even imagine right now. Maybe not financially, but in other ways Lord. Thank you for keeping them health and having them in my life. Please give comfort and I know they are struggling to figure out why! As I am as well. But we don't need to know why this stuff happens, we just need to trust you. I pray they trust you and give it up to you!