Confidence

I got a boost of confidence today and it was only because of God that it happened. I have been nervous for this day for about a couple of months now, not really dreading it, but just nervous for it. Today was my first day ALL BY MYSELF at my job at the eye clinic. I have been there since August and been working along side Sandy, the full time Optician at the clinic. She is on vacation this week. I knew I would be all by myself, since like September and was always scared for this day to arrive.

Before I went to work I prayed to God to give me the confidence to know the things I needed to know in this job for tonight. I knew I could do it, but I was nervous I'd freak out and the Dr. would realize I'm not too smart when I'm not by myself, or that I'd realize myself that I am really struggling or that this job really wasn't what I should be doing. I knew God was going to show me something through tonight, and He sure did!!

Praying before anything, has proven over and over again that it truly helps in ALL situations! I went in 2 hours earlier than I normally do and the Dr. and I were able to sit down and chat about something before the evening appointments started. I was honest with him about some of my feelings and I was so impressed with how he explained some things to me and took time to really chat with me about my concerns and frustrations. (I told him I was nervous for this day, so that is what we talked about).

I started off just doing daily things, but then I had some time before exams started to get some random things done. I was very amazed at myself of the things that I remembered from what Sandy has briefly showed me over the course of a few months. (I only work one day a week, so it's kind of hard to get things once a week!).

I was able to do all the computer work and exam visits in the computer with little to NO problems at all! I didn't think I'd even be able to put in a visit, actually, and I did ALL OF THEM! I even did dictations today, that I just started doing once before this...(they aren't very easy...lots of terminology of the eye and such and listening to the Dr. in his language and trying to type it down as you listen. I did SEVEN of them tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was on a role and really enjoying tonight. When we closed up for the night, I told the Dr. I had some dictations on the screen he could check over later and he asked how many I did, and I looked and I'm like, "I did 7!" (saying it like I was shocking myself, because I was!). He just said, "7! And you did all the normal stuff in between patients and helping others?!??!"....he couldn't believe it...and well neither could I! I had no doubt in my mind all this possible because of God! I could have never done this if I would have never ask God to help me through the night to know that this job was where I was suppose to be. I feel confident only because God just gave me the confidence tonight! Now I know this job is possible for me to do and now I feel God will help me in anything I can do, even in the littlest of things...we always seem to forget that in daily life and I was reminded of it once again today!
Thank you Jesus for the confidence and grace you gave me today.