Careful what you say!

Again, this post is actually for Wednesday, Nov. 11th. I need to get better at posting at night, it tends to get taken over by catching up with Ben and resting.

I realized something Wednesday as I was going about my day. There tending to be a trend with things I was noticing through the day in conversations. There was a lot of hush hush type of conversations going on. Why? It always has bothered me when people would talk in front of someone in "code" or something, and I just think to myself..."just tell me to leave already, or excuse yourself from the area!" It bothers me because its obviously information I'm not suppose to know, so then why are you making it known I'm not suppose to know anything?! Make sense yet?
This happened a lot yesterday and I'm still trying to figure out why that is needed or why it is that people do that.

Then I got into a conversation when I was nervous for what I was to say...meaning I really cautious for things I was saying, wondering if it would damage things or if someone would ready too much into what I was saying.
Why have I felt all of a sudden that I must watch everything I say? Is it a good thing or a bad thing that this is going on? Is it purely gossip or what? If it is gossip then that is a total difference. I'm really struggling with this, Jesus. I want to be pure in my conversations and the thoughts of what "is being said in code", to not bother me or hinder things as well. Lord God I ask that you give me clear direction as to know when to step out of conversations and when to know what to say and to have it come only from you and no one else or of human nature.


Then in youth group with my 6th grade girls, I found us on a conversation piece that went TOO far! It was a great conversation to be had, but probably not the best place to be having it at the same time. It just was interesting to me that after an entire day of dealing with conversations that seemed to lead in a direction that wasn't planned, it yet again happened, but with a group of girls you wouldn't expect it to happen with.

I sure think God was telling me things yesterday about the importance of conversations and how it can affect certain situations and people.
This is a growing point for me, I do believe!