Who do you put...

Who do you put your Faith, Trust & Hope into?

Our news only got dimmer last night. Just when everything seemed to be OK with my dad, things are now back to where they were 2 weeks ago...on edge! :(
My dad still might have a Brain Tumor. But the worst part is that its in a spot that will be inoperable. :( But first things first...we have to wait 5 weeks to see. So first off...WE CAN'T jump to any conclusions. Sure, I'm scared beyond belief and very frustrated and more so confused.

Just a week ago the Dr was telling us that he didn't think it was tumor at all...he was 99% sure it wasn't. So how now do they change their mind. First of all...we are all human, even Drs. So mistakes happen. I'm NOT mad at these Drs. by any means. But when my mom called me last night to tell me what all was going on, I didn't freak out. My mom was rather upset, and the first and only thing that popped out of my mouth (which I don't get how I said this...but now realize it's all God) was "MOM! You where do you put your Faith & Trust? You need to stop and put your Faith & Trust in God and God alone! These Drs. told us mixed news, yes. But YOU DON'T put your Faith, Trust & Hope in these Drs....EVER. The only things you put your faith, hope & trust into is God and God alone! The Drs. might tell you TERRIBLE news, like they seem to be doing now...BUT that doesn't mean anything..because God is bigger than that, he is the ultimate healer. The Drs. might tell you GOOD news, which WE THOUGHT we had...but turns out, yep, they are human.
God is choosing something different for us at this time. Good or bad, we don't know...we don't need to know RIGHT now. Right now we need to be focus on our Faith, Hope & Trust in God. But now, JUST because I trust God and have Faith in Him during this time, DOESN'T mean that He is going to heal my dad. It never means that. What it means is that I trust God that He will TAKE me through this time in my life and give me (us) the strength to get through it. And in that time...see what marvelous things we can LEARN out of it.
I'm learning it is NEVER good to put your Faith, Trust & Hope into the World...for the world fails you. But does God ever fail you? No, He is always there for you. Again, good or bad, God will TAKE YOU THROUGH IT.
I want my Faith, Trust & Hope to be in Jesus Christ and Him alone during this time. I ask Him for the strength each day to get me through it and to guide me and protect my thoughts. I now He will. I still have my bad days, like today. Today, not such a good day...but that is OK to have emotions about it...God gave us those.
But what I ask for, is the understand of who is bigger than this, and God is bigger than this ordeal! He already knows what will happen and He already knows what the spot means. God can do anything! Do you trust that?

I don't ask you Lord to heal my dad, as that would be beyond wonderful. But it's more than just healing my dad. Peel back the surface of just "healing my dad" because God is so much bigger than that. God doesn't always HEAL someone when you pray for them to be healed. I PRAY that God uses these 5 weeks to strength our Faith in Him. I pray that He uses my dad from now until 5 weeks in a marvelous way...even with the Drs. I pray for the Drs. as well, as this is something they are both (the Neurologist and Neurosurgeon) haven't really dealt with much before or even seen. I pray God uses them and sees our Faith through it as well. I just ask for prayers for us during this waiting time until we find out 5 weeks from now. We will all have our moments, especially my mom and dad. I pray they get strength and they turn to God more than ever with this.