Communication is Joyful

I just learned a great and wonderful thing! I have two things that God has been working on my heart TODAY on, and it's only 1:30pm! That excites me.

I just had a great conversation with my sweet husband. I love it when he calls me thought the day to just say Hi. This conversation went a direction I had prepared for, but one that was NEEDED! :) I've had some built up emotions for about 3 months now. Ya see, my husband is a hunter. He hunts ducks, pheasants, grouse and deer. I think that is all. So since end of September, he has been non stop hunting. I appreciate it so much because it brings a freezer full of delicious dinners that you can't get from the grocery store or from a restaurant (without pay the price). At the same time, it also requires him to be gone out hunting a lot. I don't mind most times, but when it gets to be constant and when he comes home exhausted and then our evening is shot because of him being tired, then it wears on me. Can you see where this is going yet?
I've had this built up for months! When I think about talking about it, for some reason I chicken out and make an excuse for why not to talk to Ben about my concerns. Like, "o he helped me with hanging lights in the basements, so how can I get upset with him". Or stuff like that.
Well today when he called he told me about a trip he wants to take with his dad at the end of December. I immediately sunk! And thought, ah, I thought I wouldn't have to have this conversation, I thought we were going to be OK and I'd be fine till next season. Well, WRONG!
I know this is all because God wanted to teach me a lesson on communication. Yeah see, Communication is VERY important, right?! Well I thought I could get away with communication! :) And you know what, sure our conversation wasn't easy and it took awhile to talk things through, but you know what else? My husband is now aware of my feelings I have been having and will now be able to help me out through them! And that is the best thing...otherwise I'd have it all built up inside me and someday I could just explode and that wouldn't be helpful to anyone!

God also showed me something else through this...
Immediately after talking to my husband, I felt content and peaceful. Not because we just solved a conflict we had, yeah that was part of it. But you see, our communication hasn't been great for the last month, I'll be honest! So it felt good to TALK to him again.
This is exactly like my relationship with God. Many times I feel I just solve things on my own and I don't need to go to God for everything. But you know, I do! Just like with my husband, I need to go to him about the feelings and frustrations I am feeling, the joys and excitements...all of it. As do I need to go to God to TALK to him about my feelings and frustrations, my joys and excitements. The minute I stop, is the minute I feel alone! Just as the minute I loose touch with husband, I feel alone and like I need to defend for myself. But I don't need to! Not only is my husband there for me, even when we loose communication for awhile, but God is ALWAYS there and I need to remember and know that God there with open communication. I have the same feelings when I miss communication with God! I find that amazing! I love that I can tell when I haven't been talking with God how I am use to or should be, because I feel all BLUE inside! So whenever I feel disconnected, I know its because I need to be right on track with my communication with God!

Lord Jesus, first of all I thank you for always being here for me to be able to talk to. Thank you for showing me the love you show and the joy I feel when I do talk with you. Jesus I appreciate so much the opportunity YOU GAVE me today to talk with my husband. I know I needed to have that conversation and you gave it to me! Thank you! Thank you for being there through our conversation and having us both be open to our talk. You continue to show me amazing things in my life and I thank you that I opened to it. I pray I will continue to open to communication with you!