Growing Weary

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

~Isaiah 40:28-31~

The last few days have taken a toll on me. Maybe not days, maybe its been the last 2 months, since I started 2 jobs up again. I won't complain, I love having 2 jobs and I knew doing this, that I was going to be sacrificing things in my life. This week I think it finally caught up to me. I don't regret the decision to have 2 jobs, as I knew going into it was for a really good reason. If you remember, I'm back in school after 7 years of graduating with my Associates Degree. Back at it. Well, my husband I knew going into school that it obviously was going to cost $$. Last year, I was only in a couple of classes each semester, so the cost each semester we could handle as a monthly payment to the school. So first year...paid for, debt free. :) Great feeling. Well when I registered for classes this Spring for the Fall 2013 semester, I knew it was going to be much more, and boy is it, it's double what we were paying. Something we couldn't do out of pocket as a monthly payment come Fall 2013 semester. So the decision for me was easy, get another job and pay for it all right away! And that's what I'm doing.
I've been working my 2nd job for 2 months now, and if it wasn't for me purchasing a bow (for my Birthday), we would have the first semester completely paid for already!! What an awesome accomplishment! :) So since I paid for my bow out of this money, I'm now not quiet there yet, but I'm half way! For sure by August 8 (when tuition is due), I'll have it! I know that God is honoring my hard work and our desire to have this paid for debt free. I did apply for financial aid, but I still haven't heard from it. And I think there is a reason why...God doesn't want us to use it. And I don't either!

Anyways...the last 2 months, I think have finally caught up to me. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. I've been working 30 hours at both jobs with only 2 days off in a 2 week period. Yes, I signed up for this and I knew it was going to be like this. But this week, on Wednesday when I came home from the one job, I just started to cry. My poor husband was like, "huh?" I told just cried and said I'm tired...I need more time! Thankfully I married an incredible encourager and he assured me that I have 2 more days left and then I have 2 days off!! I was almost there! OK! I can do this!
The next day I text a dear friend of mine from LaCrosse area and asked her to pray for me as she tends to pop in my head at great times and I know the same happens with her. The beauty of her is that when I pop in her head, she prays for me right way, without knowing what is going. I want to be more like that. So I just text her and let her know I was tired and that a lot was going on my mind that I needed prayer for. I didn't need to give her specifics and she just prayed and she sent me the verse that was listed at the top her. It was JUST what I needed! Thanks my dear friend...God knew what I needed and He allowed that to come through you! Thank you for your diligence in your prayer life!

My point...just when I feel I can't do another hour of work and that "why am I doing this?" attitude pops up in my head, this verse has been my saving grace at the moment. And my dear friends works "this is for a season, it will pass and it will all be worth it!" I know this to be true. I know that this is a season in my life and I will soon have school paid for and done with so that I can enjoy life again. My hardest thing right now is all I do is work, sleep, work, sleep, eat at times, work, sleep, work, eat...at if I really am motivated, I go for a run.

Speaking of a run and this verse! Here is a great example of God's strength when you are weak:
On Wednesday, after working a 9 hour day, all on my feet, only sitting for literally 10 minutes ONLY, I promised a friend that I would workout with her at the gym and do P90X. If you don't know what P90X is, it's a great, intense, workout. Wednesday night happened to be Plyo night (that means all legs!) I was like, great...just what I need after a long day on my feet to begin with. But I plugged through the workout with her and an hour later (that's how long it is), we were done. I wanted to go for a run so badly, because it's my way of de-stressing and just being FREE. So I go home and that's when I broke down crying. I was so exhausted. But my lovely husband was like, "OK, OP (our dog) is waiting for him, take him for a run!" I just sighed and said, "OK, lets go!" Why? I have NO idea what I said yes to this! I was exhausted and my legs were already in pain and telling me to sit. But o no, I go for a run instead.
Off we go. My hubby on his bike, dog in my hand, me running.
I thought, OK, we'll only go half of what we normally do (we normally do 5 miles on this particular path). My husband even said, just do a light jog. HA, me, do a light jog, you know fair well that I don't HALF do something! If' i'm going to run, i'm going to run.
We ran the ENTIRE thing and not only that, I did it in a record time for us!! :) How? Honestly, that night I had no idea. I had to re-look at my watch and re-calculate the time just to make sure I was right...and it was. I was still like, no way!
But the next day, when I text my dear friend and she sent me that verse, that is when it hit me. God was giving me the strength when I didn't have it. It was NOT me that did that...it was all God. I loved every minute of that run that night. It felt SO good to just let go and be outside and NOT working. And to me, God was saying, enjoy it, and I'll give you what you need to get through it. Thank you Jesus! It was such a blessing to me to have that time running!
God knew I needed it and He gave just the right amount of strength to complete my day that day. ALL on my feet. :( But I did it, because God was my feet and legs that day and will be everyday!